Hi all.
I am new here. First, I want to say thank you. Thank you for having this site. Thank you for reading this post. Thank you for not judging.

For the past...oh...25 years of my life, I have known I am female on the inside. But being male on the outside keeps me from being who I really want to be. I want to transition, but I am more than nervous...I am scare and frightened. It is a horrible thing to know exactly what you want, but to have tremendous fear to do it.

When I was 22 I took hormones for 4 months. I thought I would transition then. Changes started, slowly, but they started. I was nervous about my job and family and had zero support. Nobody around me could understand or relate to what I was about to do. The only thing that surrounded me was fear and doubt.

Well...years later and I am now 38. As much as I have tried, I have not been able to push aside my feelings of being a woman. I fear I am too late to transition, that the world would reject me because I may not "look" female but associate with being female. The options are there, surgery, etc etc... I can do it, but I worry
Can anyone relate?

I worry...
I worry about having a job
I worry about losing my family
I worry about losing my friends
I worry about looking like a total freak
I worry that if I don't do this, I will regret my life years from now

I found a site that "morphs" two pictures together, so I picked a woman who I admire a lot and morphed our photos together...I was curious what I would look like with slight changes...please tell me what you think. Thanks for reading and helping. I hope I can make some friends here.

I don't really know how to post a photo, so I will try a couple of ways. Sorry.

I'm 39, started HRT 5 months ago, and I've just started transitioning.  So no, you are not too old to transition.  But the important thing is to build up a support network first.  Talk to a therapist, find local transgender groups, and talk to people.  Internalizing all your thoughts and feelings all by yourself is not only unhealthy, but won't get you anywhere.  It's good that you took the first step coming here on this forum.  It can be a good place to start.  But there's no substitute for face to face conversation, especially when it comes to matters such as this.

I recommend you do all three... Engage in these forum discussions, talk to a therapist, and find a local transgender support group.


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Thank you.
I live in Taiwan, so it is hard for me to find an English speaking therapist. My Mandarin is ok, but not great. My career and life are here in Asia and I can't see myself returning to the USA as it would be so hard to start all over again back home.

That is why I cam here. But, I am looking for a transgender community here in Taiwan. Not many because it tends to be a very conservative and traditional society. Still looking though.

Hi,

Mind if I call you Keira? You are not alone. I think a lot of people feel the way you do. I know I did. Of course I had 11 years on you when I came to the conclusions you have reached. I sometimes have doubted but always hear, "You are never too old to transition." I have heard a similar one I like better. You are never too old to be true to yourself.

Therapists are terribly important. They don't tell you what to do but help guide you safely through the mazes. I am not familiar with it and don't know how to approach it but there are therapists one can access on line.

Good luck finding a support group in Taiwain. I hope that works out for you.

I also want to share some links with you. They are mostly welcome information and the rules that govern the site. If you have not had a chance to look through them, please take a moment:

Site Terms of Service & Rules to Live By	Standard Terms & Definitions	Post Ranks (including when you can upload an avatar)
Reputation rules	News posting & quoting guidelines	Photo, avatars, & signature images policy

Once again, welcome to Susan's. Look around, ask questions and join in.

With warmth,

Joanna