I haven't been very active the last couple of weeks apart from reading in this forum but today I have my 6 months HRT anniversary and I have the feeling that I need to share some stuff. 

The reason for me being so quit was the never ending story of my divorce but as it looks like I can see the end of the tunnel. My wife left on Monday and moved to her BF, after confronting her with some evidence that made her realize that her chances are marginal to win a court battle. So she drop all her financial claims and the only open topic is child custody. My daughter wants to stay with me, which is now also a fact after her move out. We only need to find a solution regarding visiting frequency and rights for my soon to be Ex.

So I'm already fully into single parenting and dog "juggling" (she also left her beloved dog behind).

I'm looking forward to have the final settlement, I just want to have some quite times and go back to "normal".
The divorce process didn't bring my best sides to the surface, my therapist told me that she never want to have me as her enemy.

I came out to a few people either directly or by proxy (my wife just told them, again without asking for permission ). Anyway all their reactions have been very positive.
I called one of the persons my wife told, to ask her to keep the secret (we are living in the same village).
I had a few conversations with her in the meantime, I have the feeling that I got a new friend.

Work wise I'm still in the closet and I plan to stay their for the time being.

I'm very grateful that my main client is very understanding (regarding single parenting) and that I don't have to travel to their HQ (4-5 hours by car) any longer, instead I can use their local office to do my work.
Another great thing is that one of the project managers is also a girl like us. 
This gives me hope for the future...

HRT is a mixed bag, mentally I feel great, I'm much more talkative, my breasts a growing (between A and B), some of my hair came back (still need a wig), my skin is definitely softer and cleaner. My main concern is my face, sometimes I can see her in the mirror but most of the time it's still very, very male. 40 plus year leave marks but I think that 6 months are not very long and I can't compare the results with others in their twenties. So I'm looking forward what the next 6 months will bring and the 6 months after that... Life is great! 

 Six months is a great milestone. Congratulations!

Sorry to hear about the messy divorce. Definetely doe not help matters.

And really sucks when people try to use it against you that you thought you could trust. So it's an amazing blessing when you do find those you can trust and are supportive.

Congrats on 6 months. I can't wait till I am there myself. Soon enough, got ball rolling yesterday.

That's so awesome and congratulations on reaching 6 months keep it up girl! And don't worry about comparing one to another I might be 25, but there are girls younger than me that progress a whole lot faster as well. Age is just a number after all, right?! You are who you are, so just keep doing you. ^^

I am sorry though a divorce can be a tough thing believe me...

congrats on your six months. divorce is so stressful.

Thank you ladies for your congratulations!
The six months did fly by and I'm sure the next will feel like a blink of an eye.
Also for you Raye

Regarding the divorce, somehow I can be grateful that she showed me that side of her. I did hurt a lot, but it prevented me from doing big mistakes that would have changed the financial security of my child and myself for the long run. Now she has to look for herself or maybe her new "leaseholder" (this is what her former best male friend said!) will have to take care.

It was really overwhelming to see the support and acceptance from all the friends and acquaintances.
A lot of friends told me that when she finally leave with the last items, they will help me with getting the house in shape again. I'm touched and thankful for all what the already did and said that they will do for us. 

I'm really glad to hear that Thessa. I wasn't allowed to visit my wife on her deathbed at the hospital at the time of my occupation otherwise I could have gone to jail, but they allowed me to see her funeral at least. It's hard I know, but it was for the better. Those that truly love you will stick around for a long time thick in through to the end. Regardless of what you may be doing to yourself under supervision from a doctor.

-Hugz and take care!-

Raye, I'm so sorry to hear that you could not visit your wife during that sad moment. 
It sounds like it was a very complicated situation.

Hugs, Thessa

It was a very complicated situation my previous profession is not something I can discuss because it involves a 20 year gag order. And those people are very powerful something we all know them by in color and strength. Just the last thing I needed to shed. My wife was more important to me than the job. It's the same experience I gained that allows me to inject myself every two weeks. I just lack fear that most people have. Because fear itself isn't something fear, but fear to not be who you are and accept that - that hurdle I've come over and she'll always be in my memory for everything she inspired me to me.


Huuuggzzz right back at ya girl. Like I tell many people here I've had to fight alot of demons in me to get to where I'm at in life. And I've no regrets and don't start planning on looking back now.