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This is my first ever... post about anything on this whole... thing,.. idk... I have no support anywhere and I have no friends and I just.... I really need help and I really need friends and I really need a support network and to know people understand and.. idk...

Hi...

i am Miya....
you can reach me and see my turmoil and my transition and like........... everything,........ at <Removed Link>

Please notice this and like..... just.... see who I am, and like... ugh. ><

I really need help....
I desperately need it...
I cried for the first time in so long yesterday, and I poured my heart and my soul out to my mom... and it just.... was met with callous love........ I can't handle it......... I can't........ I feel so scared and a lone and just............ I need help. please, help.

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That vid............ is the first time I cried...... in so long......... I tried to get my mom to accept me......... and.........
well.........
she told me i'm just lying......... that I'm worthless and I'm trying to make money off of it.........
she doesn't understand that it was literally my last attempt at throwing any love and affection back into the family dynamic...
please, if anyone out there that can read and hear or see this......... I need you, to please, help me out... reach out to me, share with me, talk to me, do anything..........  I just....... I feel so absolutely alone........... I am so alone................. My own mother told me to go die on the streets........... she told me i was trash and that absolutely no one would ever care about me........... please......... I have no friends in person or any support network at all...........
I've literally tried to kill myself a bunch of times.........

this is..........
my last attempt or something............
to  stay alive........
I am clinging onto some strand of hope.......
I know there has to be people that can feel what I am feeling or have felt what I am feeling. Please. Let the voices be heard and cast. I need this help. Please....... just.......... please............ someone............... you, sitting there, if you read this, you know what it feels like... you have to............ just........... yeah........




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Welcome to Susan's Place. Many of us have had to face issues with family, friends or spouses. Sometimes it takes a long time for people to come around and sometimes they don't. You have people here who understand and will do what they can to help you. Many of us are in the transition process or shortly after so the memories are still fresh in their mind. In my case, the transition was in the distance past and I am here in part to show and tell people that there can be happiness in their life. I don't know if it will help but I wrote a coming out letter that may be of some help. Feel free use the information as needed. Let me know if there is anything I can help you with.

Thank you very much for responding.... I really.... really... appreciate it...
I have been really struggling...
so much...

Mega depression.....
My family has cast me aside.....
my own mother told me to go die on the streets....
I fainted a few days ago at a 7-11 because I have no food at all...
I hadn't eaten for a few days and I literally collapsed...
I don't have any support
no friends, no family....
the only thing I am lucky for is that my aunt pays for my rent but besides that ,I have absolutely nothing
I have no money in my bank acount,.. I cant afford to feed myself...
I've been so suicidal.....
more information about everything is on my facebook, please, anyone that is in any way interested or willing to be compassionate or care... please, come to me and help me, talk to me, do what you can..... I just...
I absolutely need this or else.....

There are a number of place you should be able to find help. If you are a member of a church, often they can connect you with assistance. In my town, there are a number of food banks that collect and distribute food to those who need it. If you are unable to find any of this, I suggest you make a non emergency call to to the police department and ask what resources are available in your community. They may also be able to help you find work and get yourself established in the community. A few web searches with your city name included in the search should connect you with local people who can help you.

Hello Miya and welcome to Susan's.

Thank you for the replies!
I have tried kind of looking for help but to be honest at this moment I'm at a point where I have 0 dollars in my bank account and I've resorted to shoplifting food just for bare minimum survival....
I've tried asking people on my facebook for help or donations at all just so I can eat a little, but I'm not really reaching any success.
my facebook link is in the original post but I'll place it here again in case anyone is interested
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my paypal account is listed on a post there as well and the email for it is <Removed Link>
I don't know if anyone will ever see this or will even consider helping, and well, that is fine.
I just... feel the need to at least give this a shot, I don't know if anyone knows the position I'm in, but I really feel like I am walking such a thin line.
I barely have any energy to function and I fainted trying to even go out for food...
I refused medical help because I can't afford any bills, and I have absolutely no one who is able to help me...
I begged my family to help me in any way and my family told me to go die...
This is literally my last attempt at reaching out...
Please, help me, spread the message, please, assist in any way...
I am not asking for much at all
You can even just send me a message on my FB and talk to me.
I just really... need... help...
Trying to tell me I can just call something or go somewhere is kind of really out of the question right now...
I don't have a phone, I have no transportation.
The best thing I can do is hope I can even barely scrap enough resources to get nourished, at least lightly at all...
Please.... and thank you, for even reading or noticing me at all...
This is the  tiniest beacon of light I can shine....
With whatever energy I have left....

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