The funny thing about kindergarten it wasn't funny,I got held back because I could read and would get into the books we weren't allowed to touch,made teacher mad and she convinced mom I was stupid and needed to be held back..like second grade and writing cursive and upsetting the teacher,i was barely spared being held back over that one..I hated school..

Oooh, this'll be fun. One thing I always remember is being more masculine than my female peers. I was the biggest tomboy to ever tomboy.

When I was like, four or five, I decided I wanted to pee standing up, like a boy. My mother scolded me out of the habit.

When I hit puberty, I took an immediate disliking towards my breasts. And was told that was normal and I'd grow out of it eventually.

Something about being in a relationship with boys as a girl just seemed off-putting when I was 11/12.

Dressing up as a boy when I was 12/13 to see how I'd look.

Not growing out of "the tomboy phase".

When I was a preteen, I remember asking my mom "Did you ever think about being a boy as a kid?" and she'd reply, "No, have you?" I replied, "Almost every day. I think about what it'd be like." 

I always wanted to dress like a girl and loved barbie dolls at the age of 6.

Quote from: MisterQueer on June 12, 2016, 10:17:14 PM
Oooh, this'll be fun. One thing I always remember is being more masculine than my female peers. I was the biggest tomboy to ever tomboy.

When I was like, four or five, I decided I wanted to pee standing up, like a boy. My mother scolded me out of the habit.

When I hit puberty, I took an immediate disliking towards my breasts. And was told that was normal and I'd grow out of it eventually.

Something about being in a relationship with boys as a girl just seemed off-putting when I was 11/12.

Dressing up as a boy when I was 12/13 to see how I'd look.

Not growing out of "the tomboy phase".

When I was a preteen, I remember asking my mom "Did you ever think about being a boy as a kid?" and she'd reply, "No, have you?" I replied, "Almost every day. I think about what it'd be like."

It boggled my mind that other people never questioned their gender...

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I used to play with my sister's barbies and kitchen set with her and watch a Barbie film on repeat until it broke.

I often put on my mother's bra to pretend I had breasts .

I much preferred hanging around with the girls during primary school, and hated having to do male things like football (although I did love Dodgeball and bulldog).

I was kinda obsessed with my genetalia, growing to hate it as I got older


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I think the biggest sign for me is I always felt like "a boy trapped in a girl's body". I've felt uncomfortable in my skin ever since I can remember and being called a "girl" or "young lady" when I was a kid would really bother me. I wish I knew I was trans back then...

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Some time when I was in pre-school or kindergarten, I was at my babysitter's house after school.
Her daughter (several years older than me) and a couple of her friends began playing dress-up: taking bedsheets and wearing them as skirts.
It looked like fun, and I asked my babysitter if I could wear a bedsheet skirt too. She just paused for a moment then told me it's just for girls.

My memory goes blank after that moment.

All boys private primary school- first day in the playground I called out "who wants to play babies?!?!"
Been tarred with the weirdo brush ever since. Just could NOT understand those kids 

Oh this thread is so evocative!  Yes school was such a traumatic learning experience   I so wanted to play in the little kindergarten house and on the playground with the other girls.  Jumping rope, holding hands, sharing notes, sigh.  They seemed so much happier and I never saw any of the "smash the sissy and smear the queer games" that happened on the boys playground.

And then several of my cis and trans friends who grew up as girls remind me that girls could be just as "mean" in their own ways?!

Fun topic.

Going in my mom's closet when I was 5 years old and putting on her high heels. Then wearing one of her dresses along with the heels.

When I was about 8 talking the girl who lived next door to let me wear her shinny black Mary Jane shoes, then walking around the neighborhood having such fun wearing those shoes.

By the time I was in 8th grade I was completely dressing female and on one occasion going out for a walk during the day.

haha, it's crazy how many things would've helped me transition sooner if i had just known that being trans was okay. took me until i spent a week in the psych ward to figure it out.

1. feeling EXTREME physical discomfort in dresses since i was about 4 or 5. the only reason i agreed to wear them was because i was given no other option and i wanted to make my mom happy.

2. my friends and i would draw cartoon characters all the time and make up personas for ourselves. mine were always male, no matter how hard i tried to stick to my biological gender. it just didn't make sense. that's not who i was.

3. in elementary school i would always hang out with the boys and trade pokemon cards and play sports at recess.

4. i never played with dolls. they never appealed to me, and i didn't like that they couldn't stand up on their own. i just had a ton of stuffed animals and pokemon/bakugan figures. those were my favorite. i would spend hours in my basement in my own little world, making up long, drawn out stories for each of the little animals, even though they weren't human. im telling you, it's because they could stand up on their own! that's why i liked them so much.

5. when i was in 5th grade i cut all my hair off for the first time. i was ecstatic, but my mom was devastated. i didn't really know why. but i remember going into a restaurant with my family and trying to go into the women's room and getting yelled at. i was so confused and the woman had a heavy accent so i just stood there stunned until she figured it out. that's where a lot of my shame in being myself originated, i think. i was taught that it was wrong to look how i felt comfortable, and that hurt. "you can't have short hair, people will think you're a boy and that's wrong". and that lead to me letting my hair grow again until i was in sophomore year of high school, where again i took another extreme and just chopped it all off.

6. again in 5th grade, i joined a dek hockey league. i was the only "girl" on the team but that didn't seem to bother anyone, i was fit and happy and i enjoyed every minute of it. i wanted to continue but my mom convinced me against it, saying i was too small and frail and i was going to get hurt. some of the worst decisions i ever made were because of her.

7. i never fit into the female stereotype, and it seemed messed up to me that i couldn't hang out with other boys without parents making "dating" jokes.

8. my parents would always watch fbi investigation shows while we ate ice cream and i can explicitly remember one where the parents made the decision to make their child female when they were born male. i thought that was what happened to me for a while. i was only 7.

I don't remember my childhood very well all the time; but one thing I do remember feeling (and I actually wrote this down in an old diary I think), was that even as a kid, I felt like I was supposed to be a boy, and that I actually was a boy in my mom's womb - but that because both my parents wanted a daughter so badly, I "changed" into a girl when I was born.

I also remember that in most of the stories I wrote, I wrote from the perspective of a male character or perspective.

Later on, when I was a teenager (does that count?) I remember wanting to try dressing in my dad's clothes.

It was after Halloween when I was around 6-7 years old. We where going through all the photos and there was one of me, stand one my own, legs crossed, long blonde curly hair holding onto a witches broom. My brother thought it was funny and shouted out "errr you look like a girl" I on the other hand thought he was right and instead of being upset felt quite happy about it and actually liked how I looked. I also had a bright pink scooter which I loved and went everywhere on it.

Quote from: arice on June 12, 2016, 11:52:15 PM
It boggled my mind that other people never questioned their gender...

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I grew up thinking that it was normal to question my gender. Until I hit 12 years old. Then I hid it from all out of fear of being called weird or abnormal.

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My strongest memory was when I was like 11 or 12, and we were all given newspapers in class for a reason that the sands of time have long since claimed from my memory. Naturally mine had an article about how 'outrageous' it was that a kid's parents let them come back after the summer holiday as a girl when they had been presenting as a boy before. I very vividly remember wishing that someone would do that for me whilst trying to read it out the corner of my eye so no one thought I was interested in it.

Oh and of course I had to have one of those adorable kitten toys that where like cat baby dolls, and as I believe the saying goes, mad props to my parents for actually getting me one for Christmas!

Funny how memories like that become oddly sweet looking back on them
Lily

Probably the earliest sign for me was when I was 5, and my older brother was playing Ocarina of Time. I had a really big crush on Saria, my family just laughed it off as me being a weird kid. What I didn't tell them was that I pictured myself as Link saving the Kokiri and getting a kiss from Saria for my efforts. I didn't really think anything of it, or any of the other things I did growing up that would have pointed to it (not wanting to wear makeup, hating shopping, and the role I usually took in fantasy), until I was 20 and realised that I'd been half hiding from myself for so many years.

my entire life that I am able to recall and remember I've just been aware that i'm a guy. I've never ever felt like or thought that I was a girl.

When playing roleplay sorts of games alone/with friends/family I would always be a boy character while the girls would play girls one. I never wanted to play as a girl, because i'm a boy!

there's been pretty obscene/desperate signs at a very early age.

from my youngest ages I can draw memories from (3-5)


mind you, I did have constant exposure to little girls, and women.
I had a neighbor who was a year younger than me, a boy.
Since the first time I saw him urinate outside (lol!) I was like well what the hell? When I try to pee like other boys I ended up pissing all over the floor, which became a huge problem. My mother would be cleaning my messes up off the washroom floor crying "how did you miss the toilet?!" I tried constantly to pee standing up and couldn't understand why I couldn't.
I ended up having sketchbooks FULL of drawings of penis! Male genitals were so right to me. [don't even get me started on the awful occasion where my mother found them in 2nd grade]
I would pinch my genitals with my fingers in a way they resembled a small itty set of male genitals and was so mortified that they couldn't look like that always.
I knew what girls parts looked like, I never thought of my parts as girl parts. I never considered myself a female, just a boy but didn't understand why my parts are so wrong.
I never wanted to wear shirts, I wanted to just be in my diaper/underwear. 'boys don't have to wear shirts.' I especially never wanted to wear dresses or girly shirts. My parents definitely raised me to be a girl. I would cry like hell when they forced me to wear girly shoes or shirts. I never wanted to look pretty.

I think a major issue is people assuming that parents are over pushing or under pushing of gender roles and expression on children.
I'd say my parents had 0 influence at all on me being transgender. If anything they've always wanted me to fit that pretty little princess mold.

I was given female toys and clothes, never acknowledged as anything more or less than a little girl by my family. No matter the outside factors, my internals are male! No matter what situation I was put in it couldn't change what is already set from the start.

I didn't know what transgender meant until I was in 8th grade, I didn't know you could DO anything about it, never knew it was a thing. it's been a progressive battle since then, but i've been out openly for about 6 years and it's been a work in progress to fix the toll of puberty since!

Quote from: wolfx on June 30, 2016, 02:21:25 AM

When playing roleplay sorts of games alone/with friends/family I would always be a boy character while the girls would play girls one. I never wanted to play as a girl, because i'm a boy!

Ah, that was me as a child too. I actually forgot about that til now. I remember as a kid some of the girls I played with just didn't like me playing as a boy. They didn't have a problem with me playing as a male character if I was their pet or a digimon or whatever for some weird reason. I remember one time one friend back then asked me why I never played as girl characters. I couldn't even give her a good answer cause I had no idea I was trans back then.

Quote from: wolfx on June 30, 2016, 02:21:25 AM


My parents definitely raised me to be a girl. I would cry like hell when they forced me to wear girly shoes or shirts. I never wanted to look pretty.

I think a major issue is people assuming that parents are over pushing or under pushing of gender roles and expression on children.
I'd say my parents had 0 influence at all on me being transgender. If anything they've always wanted me to fit that pretty little princess mold.

I was given female toys and clothes, never acknowledged as anything more or less than a little girl by my family. No matter the outside factors, my internals are male! No matter what situation I was put in it couldn't change what is already set from the start.

I didn't know what transgender meant until I was in 8th grade, I didn't know you could DO anything about it, never knew it was a thing. it's been a progressive battle since then, but i've been out openly for about 6 years and it's been a work in progress to fix the toll of puberty since!

   I've never understood why parents do this to their kids. I hated the girly stuff too. I went to a private school from grades 5-7, where I'd be stuck in a dress every day. One time my older sister's class had spirit week and she got to wear pants. Being the only one in my family wearing a dress that day was awful. I bawled about it for hours.
   I'm a parent myself now and I hate when people push gender roles and stereotypes on my kids. I tend to stick with calling them by their names, using gender-neutral words like "child" instead of "boy" or "girl" (although I find myself slipping with this one sometimes and I hate it), letting them play with whatever toys they want and wear whatever clothes they want. I can't do anything about other people though. My social anxiety limits so many things in my life; it's why I'm only out to certain people (and even in saying that none of them have fully accepted me). I hope me just being loving and supportive to my kids will be enough for them to be comfortable with telling me anything. I hope that if they're trans like me, they can feel safe to confide in me about it.

I went to an exhibition of paintings by my former Art teacher. She said she realised I was trying to live my life as someone I wasn't meant to be & that was why I was such a handful as a kid. I thought I fooled everyone by being Billy Badass, never backing down from a fight,drinking & generally being a PITA in reality few were convinced!