I feel for you. I feel like I'm in a holding pattern too, as my spouse, relatives, etc. are all against me transitioning. I haven't cut my hair recently, but I did cut my hair short once because of my job. I felt quite depressed from it, much more than I thought I should have felt. I didn't realize at the time that I was trans and that having long hair was a basic part of my identity, but I can relate to the pit feeling after cutting long hair short.
I hope you feel better as it grows back.