Hi my name is Danny, after 48 years of being in the closet, and hiding who I really am. I'm starting my transition! It has been such a hard life! 1st being forced to be a boy, and then being told what a sick little boy I was. I had to stop this pretending to be a girl. I stated so much drama in our house! I can remember my parents arguing over me, my dad yelling at me, my mom yell at me. I just started pretending to be a boy that made everyone happy, except the little girl. After that I felt sick every time I pretended to be a girl, I felt like a horrible moster! that sick little boy that everyone hated. So I tried and tried to stop cross-dressing over the years. It's hard to love when you don't love yourself, and I have hated myself for so long, I just could not stop!! And than about 3 yrs ago I give up and just stop fighting with myself, I in brace my tureself, I started cross-dressing and feeling good about it, I was a women dam it!! It was a great weight that was lifted off me, words can't describe how I felt. I was really happy! I had never felt so wonderfully happy. It was supercalifragilisticexpialidocious happy. But the more I cross-dress, the more it feels like pretending. I need to transition, I need to be that little girl I was meant to be. I was hoping to find some support and maybe advice and make some friendships along the way here at Susan place:). Hugs
