Hi my name is Robin,

I will save everyone the normal chit chat, we all are here for the same reason. I have always felt a connection to women. My mother used to walk around the house naked, so the female body was nothing new to me. I always was amazed at the sight of the female body. Call it envy. I was a normal kid growing up, but seemed different.

I did dress up sometimes, mostly when no one was at home. I would lock up the house. I never had the courage to apply make up. My mom had a long brunette wig, I never saw her wear it but I did a few times. I almost got caught so that put the fear in me, and a stop to dress up and the wig. It was always my little secret. Fast forward many years later. I feel in love married and fathered five kids. When my wife and I would go shopping I always stayed clear of the women's clothes. Hard to walk around turned on. My wife just smiled and I went elsewhere.

My youngest child just turned 18. So I thought it was time to research my feelings and see what it leads to. When I do transition I'm not worried about family, just my wife and kids. They can live with me or go elsewhere. This is my first post, but have been reading for several weeks now

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Welcome to Susan's Place. Many of us are here for the same reason but there are exceptions that you will discover. As you have discovered, there is a huge posting history and now you have added the ability to ask questions directly. Most of the time you will get responses pretty quick but if not, wait a bit and someone will get around to answering. My transition was a long time ago, possibly in the dark ages but if you have questions for me, feel free to ask.

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Hi Robin and welcome to Susan's. Thank you for sharing your story.

Thank you for the replies, Yesterday was a hard day for me on two fronts, coming to grips with the changes ahead, and I'm diabetic and I spent some time in the ER with blood glucose readings over 300, which has never happened to me before.

I look forward to my journey with the changes for the better. I have been playing telephone tag with the care coordinator to see someone in mental health for those necessary steps.

It's likely the stress of what you are going through right now has sent you blood readings off the scale. Take care of your self and try to relax as there is still a long journey ahead of you.

Hi Robin 

Welcome to Susan's    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

Hugs

V M

Thanks Dena. I'm type 2 diabetic, and during the summer I forget to take my meds on a regular routine. I also have been on anti depression meds, if I didn't state that before. I always remember to take those. I have been hospitalized before because of my depression. Spent 3 days in the hospital that was a waste of time as it was of no help. My depression has gotten better over the last 3 years, mostly due to efforts on my part, and not any mental health pro.

I saw my Dr last week and I had planed on talking more in depth with her about my transition, but of course things don't go as planned, as many of us know.