Hey girls,
My GD is almost to the point where I want to just rip it off. Now every time I thing about my transition or my future husband or really anything trans related, I get super rock hard. I hate it so much, I feel so much less feminine. Is there any advice that anyone can give? This is almost unbearable.

Get on testosterone blockers.  That will help.  Avoid estrogen unless you are ready to fully transition.  Once you start on E there is no going back.  It is near impossible to stop.  For someone that is truly trans it is more addictive than heroin.

Quote from: DebbieA on July 24, 2016, 09:15:31 AM
Get on testosterone blockers.  That will help.  Avoid estrogen unless you are ready to fully transition.  Once you start on E there is no going back.  It is near impossible to stop.  For someone that is truly trans it is more addictive than heroin.

While going back may not be an option for some, it is for others who start the treatment and decide that transition is not for them; however, some physical changes may be irreversible (e.g., breast growth, sterility, etc.) the longer you are on HRT, but in most cases the testicles begin producing testosterone again within a few months after treatment is discontinued. The only irreversible procedures are SRS, orchiectomy, and FFS, but you can have breast reduction including implant removal if you had a BA.  I think it is important for people to know that they do have options if they decide that transition is not right for them; there may be some social adjustments if they decide to detransition, but that will resolve in time. I do agree that if you are truly trans, the dysphoria may remain, but some people find a happy medium without transitioning, or undergoing HRT.

So what you are saying is that I'm not really trans?

No one is saying your not trans, but someone wanted to show you that you have options if you decided to do something and later changed your mine. Please don't cut it off that will take away any material they hope to use later if you decide you want certain procedures done and you could bleed out. You might want to try something like T-blockers. It could help a lot to get you started.  At least it can help stop more damage from the T. Hugs
Mariah

Quote from: Mariah on July 24, 2016, 01:56:59 PM
No one is saying your not trans, but someone wanted to show you that you have options if you decided to do something and later changed your mine. Please don't cut it off that will take away any material they hope to use later if you decide you want certain procedures done and you could bleed out. You might want to try something like T-blockers. It could help a lot to get you started.  At least it can help stop more damage from the T. Hugs
Mariah

Okay, well I'm going in to see a therapist on Friday so hopefully I will be able to work with her to eventually get t blockers.


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Sounds like a good plan. hang in there. You will make it. Hugs
Mariah

Quote from: supergirl23 on July 24, 2016, 02:17:59 PM
Okay, well I'm going in to see a therapist on Friday so hopefully I will be able to work with her to eventually get t blockers.


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Quote from: DebbieA on July 24, 2016, 09:15:31 AM
For someone that is truly trans it is more addictive than heroin.

Interesting narrative, and never thought about it that way... I'd pretty much want to die if I somehow couldn't get it, so the narrative makes sense (in that sense), but it's not a physical dependence like a drug.  I'd want to quit E though like I'd want to quit eating... food isn't addictive (to healthy people anyway); it's simply required.

As far as OP: it sounds like something else may be going on that this site prohibits even mentioning so yup; I'm forced to be quiet about it (rofl).  Therapist is first step though, so good on them.

Quote from: DebbieA on July 24, 2016, 09:15:31 AM
...   Avoid estrogen unless you are ready to fully transition.  Once you start on E there is no going back.  It is near impossible to stop.  For someone that is truly trans it is more addictive than heroin.

Yeah I don't quite agree. Opiates bind endorphin receptors and dial-down our natural production of endorphins. That creates the mechanism of heroin addiction, when the body has reduced its endogenous supply of pain-reducing endorphins, withdrawal from the exogenous supply of opioid is an extremely painful experience.

E simply replaces and can suppress T. Going off of E periodically is something practiced by some non-op trans women in order to dial up libido. Not for everyone but also doesn't make one less 'truly' trans.

OP, dysphoria is hard, good luck with the therapist! For my part I enjoy sexuality and while dysphoric about erections, they're part of response and so I use them for what they're good for.

I also miss my libido, its replacement with something more femme is a slow thing for me. What we can say is that your libido will almost certainly be reduced in hrt.