So.. yeah, hi. I'm a girl. I don't know how to say that without making it sound like a stereotypical movie support group thing. I live in Alaska, I'm 42 and I am married.
We are still trying to figure out how to explain to my dad that he doesn't have a son and a daughter-in-law. he has a daughter and a son-in-law.
We're still trying to figure out how to get beyond the counseling stage to get HRT and surgery. The delays were more tolerable before my husband finally came to terms with the fact that he wasn't likely going to be able to get pregnant again, and now the various stupid hurdles from various doctors using vastly outdated standards to put off HRT are miserable and infuriating.
I basically spent decades spending as little time out where I had to pretend to be somebody else that I could, because I couldn't possibly be trans because I was told exactly what that was like by people who were completely wrong, and I wasn't like that! I finally tripped on a couple of actual descriptions of what dysphoria was like while trying to figure out how to deal with my husband's raging, crying freakouts whenever he forced himself to buy clothes, and it was like "...Yeah, that's a bit like they act... uh.. that sounds like me. That sounds exactly like me... um.... oh no, i'm a girl!" So inconvenient. Why couldn't someone have told me sooner? Ugh.
I used to think I was nonbinary, because I just knew I was a total failure at being a guy. I didn't feel any real pull toward female things after all because I didn't have any sort of weird 'cross-dressing' things or omg is that a skirt squee, it's so comfy and omg I want to cook and be held by my partner and watch him work on motors and all these other things that he just can't stand doing and uhhh.. I guess i'm acting like a girl after all so maybe I need to just shut up and start checking that F box.
My mother is... supportive I guess. She took me shopping! But she won't even try to change pronouns. My father acted like we were talking in some ancient alien language. Everything else is a jumble because my family is never gossipy when I need them to be, and I am nervous about having to make a big scene about things over and over.
I don't feel like I have anybody to talk to. The only other people I know of in my area are teenagers, and the nearest group to meet with is an hour away and monthly at a time that I kept getting other things happening at.
Anyways.. No idea what to say here, introductions are always awkward..
