Ok, so I've always been thin. I was probably borderline underweight as a child, and then struggled with body image and eating disorders as a teen. Everyone on both sides of my family seem to struggle with chicken legs (unfortunately, that's where I most want to gain). I've heard soooo many people talk about how quickly and easily they gained weight on T, so when I started, I was excited to see what would happen (especially after I got top surgery, and knew I wouldn't gain in the chest).
I've been on T 10 months now. About 6 months on the starting dose, a month off for my top surgery, and 3 months on the higher dose. After switching to the higher dose, I did manage to gain about 2 pounds somehow. I think that was back when I was able to workout more often (with my job and health problems, it's difficult). Other than that, however, I've had the hardest time gaining anything. For reference, I'm a little over 5'4" and weight maybe 118lbs if I'm lucky.
A little over a month ago, I started using Ensure Plus, twice a day, and semi-tracking calories to make sure I'm hitting some kind of surplus. Unfortunately, despite the fact that they say it's "Suitable for Lactose Intolerance", that is a flat-out lie, and I was constantly in the bathroom. :/ I realized that Lunchables have about the same nutritional facts, so since then, I've replaced the shakes with those (even with the cheese in the Lunchables, I still suffer almost no issues, unlike the weight gain shakes). In the past month or so of doing that, I've MAYBE gained a pound or so (assuming my scale is right, which, it usually isn't).
Even before trying on my own to gain weight, I would go through periods where I would eat very fatty, unhealthy meals often (like cheesesteaks that are over 1000 calories for just one of my daily meals). No matter what, it wasn't helping me gain. I do have stomach issues, and sometimes it's hard for me to be able to eat, making things even more difficult. I watch the people around me eating the same way I do, gaining and losing left and right (depending on our eating habits), but I can't seem to get my body to change.
Is there anyone else out there suffering from the same problem??? I've only seen guys who are able to gain or lose easily on T, but I've yet to hear people complain about stagnating. I'm not trying to become fat or anything, but I can't help but feel I'm losing out on a lot of development from T without being able to gain anything.
Please don't tell me I'm "lucky" for not gaining a bunch of weight from T; I've spent a lot of money that I barely even have trying to make sure I get extra calories in the past month. I've struggled with trying to gain weight for years, and am losing more and more hope now realizing that T is not helping me get there.