Hi...
I have been in gender therapy for six months now, and I am struggling with a many things (what a shock, huh?). I have come out to only three people, a couple of friends and my Mother. They are really hoping that I "get over" this and have said many helpful things to me, such as "You know, nobody will date you if you transition" and "You were so pretty when you were a girl" (yep, that's Mom). I have spent these months struggling to discover if just wearing men's clothing 24/7 and wearing my hair like a man's (man sideburns, not pointy girl ones) will be enough to satisfy my manly interior. I am still feeling like it isn't enough. Last night, I dreamed that I got my first shot of T. Mind you, I am not one to usually place a lot of importance on dreams, much in the way I place no stock in horoscopes or tarot cards. But when I woke up, I felt sorrowful that it was just a dream. Part of my struggle with hormones is that I have heard that Testosterone can cause liver damage. I have tried to conduct some online research but much of what I read is secondhand stuff handed off by people on other sites, and I am very leery of the scientific validity of it. One person wrote and stated that only T taken orally causes liver damage, that intramuscular injections do not. Also, heart disease runs in my Dad's side of the family, and I worry that testosterone could send me to an earlier grave...although my Dad lived to be eighty-one (I am 44). The liver damage is more concerning to me. If any of you know of reliable information concerning hormones, please reply...