Hi everyone,

I'm new and newly out, well, at least to my wife who's going through her own emotions about it all. My head is swimming in thoughts, questions, and emotions.

I'm not wanting to verbally throw up on everyone. I go through good days and nervous and paranoid days. I've bottled this up since I was about 8 or 9 - my memories of this time are very fuzzy and I think blocked as I had a hectic childhood. My mom is borderline if anyone knows what that refers too.

Anyway, I've never been "masculine" and attempted to - I believe - compensate it by joining the Navy, which didn't really last that long and other things.

I'm seeing a therapist on Wednesday about starting the whole thing and I'm so excited I just can't wait. My internal woman has been beating down the door lately and it's getting to hard to keep her locked up. I have day dreams and night dreams, fantasies, and visions wearing cute clothes and finally being internally happy - I've been clinically depressed for years.

All in all I'm wanting to go for the whole enchilada... HRT, feminization, SRS, etc. My goal is to be a full woman by 50 or 51. I'm 46 now.

Well, I guess I did do a little throwing up verbally.

Thank you!

Hi Shauna,
   Pretty name! Welcome! I'm not an official greeter but I would like to say hello. I am excited to see that you are taking positive steps to get to where you want to get. I am transitioning in late 50's so it is never too late. People  are helpful and very supportive on this site, so I hope you are comfortable here. My name is Monica See you around!

Quote from: HappyMoni on October 01, 2016, 08:46:51 PM
Hi Shauna,
   Pretty name! Welcome! I'm not an official greeter but I would like to say hello. I am excited to see that you are taking positive steps to get to where you want to get. I am transitioning in late 50's so it is never too late. People  are helpful and very supportive on this site, so I hope you are comfortable here. My name is Monica See you around!

Thank you! I've learned a lot already just perusing the forums.

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V M

As a former sailor, welcome.

Hi and Hugs Shannon

Welcome!

Hi Shauna. I did the same as you...joined the Navy to become more of a man lol. Oops - that was an error! Square peg in a round hole. I am 43 and just starting out as well. It's very refreshing to see that others have similar stories!

This seems sort of common.   I did 6 years in the Navy, picking one of the more dangerous options, submarines.     Yeah, trying to be a macho, macho, man. In the Navy...

It didn't work.     It looks like we're all in recovery from that, and getting better.  Yay us!

Hugs,
Michelle

I got married forty years ago trying to prove my man parts were not a mistake. I got divorced three years later.  I have learned through therapy I had tried to undermine our relationship. Well I succeeded.