Hey I've been on testosterone for almost 1 month now, and the only change that I don't like so far is my bottom growth. Idk I think I had dysphoria about that area before starting testosterone because I wore a packer almost everyday and still do. But like? I've only heard guys want bottom growth and I've heard some say that it's strange to not want it? Like I just feel more disgusted, I could handle it before better because I was used to how that stuff looked... Idk maybe it takes time to get used to? But it has grown a lot and honestly I kind of feel like a freak... Am I weird for feeling this way? I doubt myself a lot and I don't really have anyone to talk about these things am I not ''trans enough'' or something? Sorry for being so negative

Swollen/enlarged vulvas can look weird, and not at all masculine, and are going to be more prominent.  I can understand you having dysphoria from having your female organs enlarged.  I also know that with most trans people, the changes of an effective transition can bring out increased dysphoria, because you notice what HASN'T changed against what has.

Alternatively, you may not have dysphoria for your female genitals.  I get euphoric for female traits, and generally dislike being perceived as too masculine, but I don't get very upset by my penis, except maybe it's inability to please me in bed. 

Quote from: PrincessCrystal on November 02, 2016, 11:32:50 PM
Swollen/enlarged vulvas can look weird, and not at all masculine, and are going to be more prominent.

Those are not the parts that grow on T.

Quote from: Romanticnachos on November 02, 2016, 06:33:02 PM
Hey I've been on testosterone for almost 1 month now, and the only change that I don't like so far is my bottom growth. Idk I think I had dysphoria about that area before starting testosterone because I wore a packer almost everyday and still do. But like? I've only heard guys want bottom growth and I've heard some say that it's strange to not want it? Like I just feel more disgusted, I could handle it before better because I was used to how that stuff looked... Idk maybe it takes time to get used to? But it has grown a lot and honestly I kind of feel like a freak... Am I weird for feeling this way? I doubt myself a lot and I don't really have anyone to talk about these things am I not ''trans enough'' or something? Sorry for being so negative

I think it takes some time to get used to. I didn't have any bottom dysphoria until after top surgery. It was like I had other things to distract me from it. And then the bottom growth I got just didn't seem like enough for me.

I dunno, I wash and then put on boxer briefs and forget about it. I don't care for the extra sensitivity but on the whole I haven't looked at it much. Far as I can see that area is never gonna look 'good' to me before or after so I guess it doesn't matter.

Really don't think you're 'not trans enough' RomanticNachos. A lot of guys get stressed about "down below" when it's growing. To me it kind of disgusts me because it still looks very much like female genitalia but now it's more prominent. It's drawing attention to itself and dysphoria feels worse when your attention is drawn to it.

Some guys never minded having female genitalia, some like their bottom growth (some started with intersex genitals anyway), and some are desperate to get bottom surgery. So--opinions vary! Congrats, you're normal.