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I have had my FFS...

Started by 2cherry, November 11, 2016, 12:11:44 PM

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2cherry

Day 6th is almost gone here...

I just noticed a small hole in my gumline. I can see a tiny part of my chin. ^-^ Doesn't hurt, just a loose stitch I think. So I re-taped my lowerlip for pressure and go to Dr. Wednesday for inspection.

Maybe my own fault. I started eating lots of things I really could not so soon. My whole lower gumline was stitched from jaw to jaw, including both top corners. But we'll see.

My face now feels as if I have a permanent beauty mask... as if it's wrapped in some kind of clay that has dried. Did you ever make a plaster gauze face mask in school? that's how it feels exactly. No pain, just annoyance. Tooth & jaw ache, because my tongue felt the overwhelming and incessant need to inspect it's new home. All day long it feverishly touched each piece of furniture. Behind, beneath, on top... As if it was looking for something...Right now it feels like I've had pulled all 4 wisdom teeth, and are recovering. The nose is annoying, because of splint. Can't feel my forehead. No pain whatsoever, just numb.

My stamina isn't where it was yet.

It seems to go well... flu has been gone for days.

Update: I just had a look in the mirror, with my hair down and some eyeliner. Truly amazing...! the forehead is beautiful... it gives me the most satisfaction right now. The jaw is nice and all, but I don't pay attention to it that much. If I only had done the type 3 forehead reconstruction and brow lift, it would have been fine in itself, I think, it makes such an epic difference. (probably the most obvious to notice, besides nose)

I am so excited about the nose... because I cannot see it yet.

I feel so good... so much at peace... despite all the annoyance.

I would love to smile right now, but it still hurts...


1977: Born.
2009: HRT
2012: RLE
2014: SRS
2016: FFS
2017: rejoicing

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jujubes1986

Quote from: 2cherry on November 11, 2016, 12:11:44 PM
Hello, I am at home now, I had FFS at Wednesday. I contracted a high fever, so I won't stay long...

I had nearly everyting: chin, jaw, nose, type 3 forehead sinus removal, orbital recontouring, hairline lowering, brow raising, zygoma arch ostetomy, facelift, and liposuction from chin, all in one go...

SURGERY TIME: 9 HOURS!

My God... it's is worse than SRS... so much pain, vomiting blood the 1st day. I have never been so deep in Hell, because is what it felt like. I was staying in hospital, so I had good access to medication. Morphine, and paracetamol. Morphine made me nauseous so I went with paracetamol only.

I think it was too much... the worse thing is the nose, had anxiety with breathing for 2 days. Then, I got used to it.  :laugh: >:( :o ??? it is so weird.... so much to talk about, but too much pain and fever to think clearly.

I am slowing healing, chin packing is gone. Remarkebly, ther was very little swelling. sorry for spell mistakes, it is so hard to type right now. Feels like I am hammering nails!
I'm jealous... I want ffs too :(


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Drexy/Drex

Quote from: jujubes1986 on November 14, 2016, 02:21:08 PM
I'm jealous... I want ffs too :(


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Really ? You are already gorgeous. ...
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Drexy/Drex

Quote from: 2cherry on November 14, 2016, 11:59:05 AM
Day 6th is almost gone here...

I just noticed a small hole in my gumline. I can see a tiny part of my chin. ^-^ Doesn't hurt, just a loose stitch I think. So I re-taped my lowerlip for pressure and go to Dr. Wednesday for inspection.

Maybe my own fault. I started eating lots of things I really could not so soon. My whole lower gumline was stitched from jaw to jaw, including both top corners. But we'll see.

My face now feels as if I have a permanent beauty mask... as if it's wrapped in some kind of clay that has dried. Did you ever make a plaster gauze face mask in school? that's how it feels exactly. No pain, just annoyance. Tooth & jaw ache, because my tongue felt the overwhelming and incessant need to inspect it's new home. All day long it feverishly touched each piece of furniture. Behind, beneath, on top... As if it was looking for something...Right now it feels like I've had pulled all 4 wisdom teeth, and are recovering. The nose is annoying, because of splint. Can't feel my forehead. No pain whatsoever, just numb.

My stamina isn't where it was yet.

It seems to go well... flu has been gone for days.

Update: I just had a look in the mirror, with my hair down and some eyeliner. Truly amazing...! the forehead is beautiful... it gives me the most satisfaction right now. The jaw is nice and all, but I don't pay attention to it that much. If I only had done the type 3 forehead reconstruction and brow lift, it would have been fine in itself, I think, it makes such an epic difference. (probably the most obvious to notice, besides nose)

I am so excited about the nose... because I cannot see it yet.

I feel so good... so much at peace... despite all the annoyance.

I would love to smile right now, but it still hurts...


I am so looking forward to when you have healed  and can see your self completely  :)
Yes i,m  envy too i want need ffs so bad
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R R H

Quote from: markie on November 15, 2016, 06:55:43 AM

Really ? You are already gorgeous. ...

I thought the same  :D

It's both inspirational and slightly scary to have followed this thread. Scary because I now realise my FFS is very fast approaching. I have just started a separate thread about it: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,216392.0.html

If anyone feels like adding tips I'd be very grateful.

Gosh 2Cherry: I'm so awed by what you have done.

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2cherry

Day 7.

This day makes all the difference...

While I still feel weak, not tired just weak, I find that I feel much better. I can now finally breath fully through my nose again. All swelling inside of it has subsided. And so did the ability to smell again! Oh my, how strange...! taste involves smelling, I am convinced now. My tea tastes like TEA again, instead of TEABAG. LOL.

Sometimes the nose is still bit swollen and filled with snot, but I can extremely slow blow/run my nose. So it all works!

The loose stitch in my mouth near the chin, is my own stupid fault. I removed the chin package a day to early, so I simply ripped a suture. Didn't even feel it, because of the painkillers. So: Follow Dr's advice!

Since day five, I moisten my hairline scar with Vaseline. It prevents scabbing and ugly scarring.

Tomorrow I will see my Doc again. He's going to remove some staples/stitch and clean my mouth.



I am indeed very grateful that I could undergo the surgery. For me it is life changing. FFS removed the mask off my face, and finally revealed who I truly am. I am grateful for science, and for the surgeon who took a risk in order help me. I am grateful for everyone who supports us, we as human being, and those who don't label nor judge us. You guys are true heroes.

Believe me, curing this extreme condition could only be done through surgeries. No amount of medication & therapy could cure me. In fact, it was a complete waste of time.

But right now, I feel like I am flying!



1977: Born.
2009: HRT
2012: RLE
2014: SRS
2016: FFS
2017: rejoicing

focus on the positive, focus on solutions.
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2cherry

So... the nose cask/cast/external splint/whatever it's called... came off in shower...  :laugh:

Nose is beautiful... not too much, not too little. and it's still tiny bit swollen. But nothing major. It has sensation, and has no bruising colors. I will put the cast back on when I go to sleep. But I am overjoyed right now... the nose with the forehead reduction + browlift makes all the difference.

Even when my face still has green and yellow -which looks like a weird beard shadow- I can see where this is going. And I am going to like it. It's so subtle, but so different that when I look at my face, I think: This is what I always was, beneath it.

Another great feature was the zygoma arch, which he cut and pulled upward. I now actually have high cheeks! I even have that famous 'cheek shadow', all natural!!! this is truly good. And it's raised only by 3-5mm. It looks subtle, but incredibly different and good.

Jaw looks nice, but I still got swelling. My face is more rounded.

The chin... I am not sure yet what to think of it. He did very little there, but he had a reason for it in regard with the lip lift, I remember him saying, which he didn't do yet.

I think I reached a 90% female face, coming from a 70%. With the lip lift, I think I will be 95%. Maybe a little chin work and few hair grafts I can make it a 100. Question is, do I want that? not sure yet. The lip lift will be done in his office while being awake. But I am not sure I want another surgery for the chin alone... we'll see what my dr. thinks about it, because he wanted to discuss with me why he didn't do the lip lift yet.

We are our greatest critics, so I guess I look fine now.  :D


My face is sensate, except for a round spot on my chin, and top of brows all the way to hairline. In this place, it feels like I am wearing soft headband. Doesn't hurt at all. I can raise my brows, but it's more fine/limited than before. I can't frown much... but maybe that is a good thing, because I always frowned and it creates wrinkles. Speaking of wrinkles, the forehead lift flattened my forehead wrinkles as well.

One good thing about the forehead numbness, ...is plucking my brows! I don't feel very much of it now, woohoo!  ;)


1977: Born.
2009: HRT
2012: RLE
2014: SRS
2016: FFS
2017: rejoicing

focus on the positive, focus on solutions.
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2cherry

#47
Day 8.

I visited my Dr. today. He removed the staples and stitches from the head. He was pleased with the result, and so was I. He told me I lost just over 1L blood. He doesn't know the exact amount, because they tested it with a bloodsample on day one. Without this routine hospital test,  I would have never known.

The ripped chin stitch did not matter. This will reattach itself, I only need to keep it clean with a plastic syringe and salt water.

Surgery story:

The forehead posed a huge problem. He told me that, with some people, the forehead nerve lay on top of the skull. In others, it is buried and lies inside of the skull. Guess what applied to me? Yep, the main nerve was embedded inside the skull. So he and his team proceeded to HACK the nerve free from the skull, with a hammer and chisel! Which took a long time, and was very complex. Because of this, my forehead is super sensitive because of the all the blows to the skull. So he didn't even cut the nerve (easy), No, he went so far as to actually hack the nerve free to preserve it. I am glad I went to a hospital, my intuition was correct.

Phew... I think it's best I don't imagine what this whole surgery might have looked like. Anesthesia is a miracle.  Surgeons are such special people, really. I have so much respect for them. And I certainly going to reward him with a nice gift.


Sense nerves in face:

To test sensitivity of the 3 branches of the tregeminal nerve, press spot 18, 22 and 23.  18 is on the orbital rim, 22 is at the cheek, and 23 is at the chin.

18 = Supraorbital.
22 = Infraorbital N.
23 = Mental N.





1977: Born.
2009: HRT
2012: RLE
2014: SRS
2016: FFS
2017: rejoicing

focus on the positive, focus on solutions.
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Debra

Wow! Yeah I had asked about the orbital nerve because I'd heard of complications with it and my doctor explained something similar. That in some patients the nerve was buried in the skull and they had to be a little more violent to it to get it out of the way.

Thankfully that wasn't the case for me. Hope your recovery continues to go well! =)

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2cherry

Day 9, and I feel fine...  :eusa_dance: :icon_blahblah:


This is the first night I could/dared to sleep on my sides. Since day one, I slept on my back. Previously, I slept on one of my sides. So, I went back doing that today. It was also the first night without me waking up, I even slept a little more. And no nightmares. I had a nightmares each day after surgery. Probably due to fever, anesthesia, antibiotics.

I still wear my nosecast at night. It's made from some flexible metal, so I can shape it a little. It prevents outside swelling, so it really seems like a mold. The longer it stays, the better, especially when your nose still swells. I notice that when I place the cast back, the inside of my nose swells more. So I think it is a good choice to put it back. I don't want a swollen nose.

Overall I feel good. Not much to say. From now on it will be weeks/months of slow healing.




1977: Born.
2009: HRT
2012: RLE
2014: SRS
2016: FFS
2017: rejoicing

focus on the positive, focus on solutions.
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R R H

Quote from: 2cherry on November 17, 2016, 04:06:14 AM
Day 9, and I feel fine...  :eusa_dance: :icon_blahblah:


This is the first night I could/dared to sleep on my sides. Since day one, I slept on my back. Previously, I slept on one of my sides. So, I went back doing that today. I still wear my nosecast at night. It's made from some flexible metal, so I can shape it a little. It prevents outside swelling, so it really seems like a mold. The longer it stays, the better, especially when your nose still swells. I notice than when I place the cast back, the inside of my nose swells more. So I think it is a good choice to put it back. I don't want a swollen nose.

Overall I feel good. Not much to say. From now on it will be weeks/months of slow healing.


That's fantastic news 2Cherry. You seem to be making brilliant progress now. I'm so happy for you x
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jujubes1986

Quote from: 2cherry on November 17, 2016, 04:06:14 AM
Day 9, and I feel fine...  :eusa_dance: :icon_blahblah:


This is the first night I could/dared to sleep on my sides. Since day one, I slept on my back. Previously, I slept on one of my sides. So, I went back doing that today. It was also the first night without me waking up, I even slept a little more. And no nightmares. I had a nightmares each day after surgery. Probably due to fever, anesthesia, antibiotics.

I still wear my nosecast at night. It's made from some flexible metal, so I can shape it a little. It prevents outside swelling, so it really seems like a mold. The longer it stays, the better, especially when your nose still swells. I notice that when I place the cast back, the inside of my nose swells more. So I think it is a good choice to put it back. I don't want a swollen nose.

Overall I feel good. Not much to say. From now on it will be weeks/months of slow healing.
I know healing takes time... but I'm sure it'll be all worth it... im healing myself and nursing an infection :(


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2cherry

#52
To finish this, I'll do a short recap.

Procedures:

1. Type III forehead reconstruction.
2. Orbital Rim bossing removal.
3. Zygoma sandwich osteotomy (zygoma arch cheek lift) LeFort III.
4. Mandible correction, jaw surgery. Square jaw reduced, rounded.
5. Genioplasty, chin surgery. Height and width correction, shaving of ends.
6. Hairline lowering, 1.5CM.
7. Hairline correction: closure of hair loss areas above temples.
8. Brow lift (micro screws to affix them)
9. Facelift.
10. Rhinoplasty, hump removal and tip modeling.
11. Liposuction chin, neck.
12. Liplift (not executed, will be done at later stage)

This is one of the hospital theaters, it'a hybrid one and was built in 2013. State of the art. In fact, when I was wheeled into this room I thought I was inside some kind of spaceship, green and blue light, screens everywhere, it was awesome especially for me, because I like high tech gadgets. They asked if I wanted some music, but I am a composer/musician myself so and I don't like listening to music that much. Just my opinion.

Click on picture for larger version.



The next photo is when all the instruments are present:




I stepped unto the table, and lay down. Was relatively comfortable, much more than with my SRS. Different table maybe. The anesthesiologists (3 where present) went on to do their thing, and also said I would be getting a foot IV as well for extra safety. Yes, bring it on, I like extra safety. It was buzzing with a complete surgical team, and they also brought in students to learn. So it was packed, I was ready to give a show! after a few laughs, they got serious and gave me the mask. I breathed a couple of times, and down the rabbit hole I went...

A nine hour second later, I woke up. I was calm, and I knew where I was. My forehead was freezing. And I noticed a huge cold pack on it. I asked them to remove it, because it was too cold. I got a smaller one, and I used it couple of times. But not often. I don't remember a whole lot, because I went in and out sleeping all the time. I was on medium care, with 4 other patients. One had a triple bypass and was screaming his head of every 10 minutes when he awoke. At night I was treated by the other 3 patients to a private chorus of snoring old men... Was funny in some sense... I got morphine shots when I wanted them. Each night I got a shot for anti-blood clotting. I vomited blood at one point, which was awkward, to say the least. It's best that I forgot that night. Blood was taken once a day by staff. Then they said I lost some blood, but didn't need transfusion.

We were monitored 24/7, with a nurse behind floating screens that came from the ceiling. The nurses took turns with other nurses. They gave me a tiny ice Popsicle, which was sweet. But when licking, I fell asleep and the Popsicle was melting on my jacket. LOL, so a male nurse would clean me and we laughed, although I could not laugh.
I slept a lot, and before I knew it I was brought to general care section, where everybody ends up. Here, there isn't much attention. But I could get it with the press of a button.

Was in a lot of pain the first two days, and many annoyances. I spoke about them in my first post. Interesting thing is, I don't remember much. Maybe it's a way of the body to forget intense emotional things for a while. All was really uneventful, except for the 100+ high fever I contracted. Which made my head feel like I was set on fire, compounded by all the physical annoyances and pains. Two days of Hell I said. I guess it was so, but I don't remember it anymore. Maybe the nightmares in the days after it had something to do with it, like processing all this onslaught?

I spent two days in bed, sleeping mostly. Sometimes I got out for a walk. I ate liquid foods, medical diet food. I don't remember much from these days. I slept them away, and waking up every 15 minutes from hospital noises.

Then I went home. So I spent 3 days in total. Was enough for me to walk around like I used to do. I called a taxi and went home.  :D


1977: Born.
2009: HRT
2012: RLE
2014: SRS
2016: FFS
2017: rejoicing

focus on the positive, focus on solutions.
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Drexy/Drex

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R R H

Another great read 2Cherry. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I'm slightly scared ;)

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2cherry

Some weird bits and pieces:

Mirrors.

After FFS it's good to change my mirror, lighting and place the mirror somewhere else. The mind remembers your own face in the mirror and will get used to it. The mind can get used to many things and even ignore things. I am certain the mind can play tricks. At one moment I looked at my face, and I was certain I noticed my brow bossing... such an awkward moment... I really had to blink a few times, and look from another angle. And it was gone. It seems the mind simply reconstructs and project the image from memory it usually sees...?

Flexibility of the body

I discovered how flexible the body is. Before FFS, I would always -without exception- sleep on one of my sides. In hospital I was forced to sleep on my back. After 3 days I got used to it. Even being close to two weeks post-op it feels weird to sleep on my side. But I get used to it as well. In hospital I could not breathe through my nose for a good number of days. Again, it took the body two days to get used to it. After two days I would not even notice it, unless I needed to eat something that reminded me of the change.

Singing.

When doing my daily vocal singing/training, I noticed some interesting effect. My voice has changed, especially the resonance. The voice is much more full in projection, and I think that is because of the smaller sinus. It's just different. When humming notes, it tickled some bone/cartilage in my nose that resonated. Very weird feeling, so I quit doing that because it might dislodge something. 

Field of vision.

This is strange... I am sure my field of vision has expanded, while I know it is impossible. Here is my theory: the brow bossing and the orbital rims cast a shadow into the eyes, and making the field of vision seem somewhat narrower, or closed. Nose is also a little bit smaller, adding to the effect.

Shower

Before, water would run over the brow bossing, and off the sides. But now, water simply drops into my eyes. Something I certainly did not expect.

Stamina.

Before FFS, I would walk 1-2 hours a day without much of a problem. I like to walk, and do it each day. But right now, half an hour is my peak. Doing groceries is taxing, especially carrying heavy bags. I can feel the pressure on my nose when I lift something.


1977: Born.
2009: HRT
2012: RLE
2014: SRS
2016: FFS
2017: rejoicing

focus on the positive, focus on solutions.
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Sophia Sage

Quote from: 2cherry on November 21, 2016, 04:24:55 PMBefore, water would run over the brow bossing, and off the sides. But now, water simply drops into my eyes. Something I certainly did not expect.

Yeah, that's a great moment, isn't it?
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Debra

Quote from: 2cherry on November 21, 2016, 04:24:55 PM
Mirrors.

After FFS it's good to change my mirror, lighting and place the mirror somewhere else. The mind remembers your own face in the mirror and will get used to it. The mind can get used to many things and even ignore things. I am certain the mind can play tricks. At one moment I looked at my face, and I was certain I noticed my brow bossing... such an awkward moment... I really had to blink a few times, and look from another angle. And it was gone. It seems the mind simply reconstructs and project the image from memory it usually sees...?

Yes very interesting. I'm 2+ weeks post-op now and have been going around , hanging out with friends , wearing a beanie or a hairband to cover the scar. When I look in the mirror or take selfies I think, alright starting to get back to normal. Then the other day, I helped a gf paint a couple accent walls at her apartment and a couple pics were taken of me (that weren't me taking them) and for some reason I look ....different. Part of it is the swelling but part of it is just...the difference I guess. Just kinda funny how we get used to things ourselves.

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Shower

Before, water would run over the brow bossing, and off the sides. But now, water simply drops into my eyes. Something I certainly did not expect.

OMG yes! This was one of the first things I noticed when I first took a shower. I had not given the brow bossing a thought.....I kind of assumed it was partly because my forehead is numb in places so I don't feel the water going down my forehead but that makes sense too.

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Drexy/Drex

Sooo interesting thanks for sharing , you're very brave
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2cherry

Tomorrow it's two weeks already... time is such a strange thing. I got operated on the night of the election. When I woke up, I heard that Trump had won. A strange idea, as if I woke up in a parallel Universe.  ^-^

Everything is going fine. Today I went shopping, and right now I am very tired, because of it. The body is working very hard. I can feel it. I can ride a bike, but not uphill. That takes too much energy, that I don't have.

I bought a gift for my surgeon, and wrapped it into a nice bag with some candy strewn around it. Can't wait to give it and see his response. He worked very hard on me, something I deeply respect.

Well, that's it for now. I am going to bed early, I need it.


1977: Born.
2009: HRT
2012: RLE
2014: SRS
2016: FFS
2017: rejoicing

focus on the positive, focus on solutions.
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