I'm 65 and basically until I transitioned 3 years ago I've purged all my life and that a lot of items I've gotten rid   in an attempt to stop and never do it again.

More times than I want to count. Hugs
Mariah

I was closeted for thirty years, there must have been a couple of dozen purges at least. I'd like a refund!

I seem to be a hoarder of clothing even if I never wear it again.... if I ever lose my clothing its from accidental loss like going to be a place and leaving it behind. Although I hardly buy clothing too unless it's for a special occasion.

I had a major purge after my father died . I had been taking care of him until he died and I had a nice wardrobe and my hair was down the middle of my back. I was a hippie. Well when my dad died I had been sick with a bad flu and didn't take care of my hair properly and it got all noted so instead of surviving with what was left after trying to comb it out I just gave up and cut it all off and when I did that with the fact of my father death I decided one more time to clean house and try to be the male, so out went the hair and a really nice bunch of dresses, shoes and underwear thinking I had finally put the struggle to rest with the death of my dad. I got a job and it worked for 20 years. Hear I am finally transitioning after finally realizing that I had to accept who I am.

Having lived my life on the corner of Futile & Fatalism, I never had anything even close to a purge. As badly as I wished the feelings would go away I knew that it wasn't having the clothes making me want to wear them, it was me making me want to wear them.

Then add in as a kid/youth/teen/YA/grup acquiring clothing was always a major undertaking, both logistically in male mode and being able to financially justify an insane extravagance. A purge would only lead to reliving all that angst and the expenditure of more emotional energy

Quote from: Mariah on November 23, 2016, 11:43:04 PM
More times than I want to count. Hugs
Mariah

Same

I feel bad for people who are older because it seems like they have the most purges. Not just because they have had more time to purge but also because of social stigmas. I think with a more accepting society than we had 10, 20, and 30 years ago that we are seeing a decrease.

I never had a purge and was a bit confused when I encountered it for the first time on this site. For some reason the people I associated with either never purged or if they did, they never talked about it. My transition was one way and I never took back steps.

The way I was brought up, I thought I was sick and just needed to man up and use my will power to defeat my feelings. I did my first purge when I was 12. I can't count how many times I cycled between guilty pleasure and remorse since then. I had no idea others were going through what I was feeling.

I can't remember how many times but it was a lot.  I miss some of those clothes.  I wonder how much money I threw away in this process.

Too many times.  I am getting very close to doing it again...

I never really did... but to be fair, I did not own that much clothes that I would have purged. I think I nicked a skirt and a leggins from my sisters clothes donation box at some point, but I never "dressed" much. And by the time I was about 22 I started buying neutral unisex and slightly feminine clothes and just used them anyday - I kep them after I told people my new name and took hormones, just adding to that and then at some point I got rid of some of the older ones... I guess it was much less "violent" for me in terms of going this way and then the other way again. Interestingly I did not get very femme clothes until this year, really - about 18 years after transitioning. For most of the time I was more into unisex and slightly feminine clothes, but not into skirts and dresses and all that anyways. More like Jeans and spaghetti Tops maybe. But now that I am over 40, I somehow decided to be more femme for some reasons - a bit late maybe, it surely would have looked better at age 25 or 30.

Not once.

But I had tiny purges, for example, where I would get angry and say: Okay then!!! if you want me to be male, here's male!! let's fight like men then!!! *raising my fists* to a stranger who insulted me when I just started.

I was extremely angry and would have crushed the guy if I didn't come back to my senses. Getting insulted in the first months is just soul crushing.

I was like: if you think I am a male, let me pretend you are right and kick your ***! I was involved in a number of street fights throughout my life, so I wasn't afraid at all.

Kinda embarrassing when I look back, but I felt I had no choice. 

Quote from: Paige on November 24, 2016, 10:22:29 PM
I can't remember how many times but it was a lot.  I miss some of those clothes.  I wonder how much money I threw away in this process.

that's one thing I really don't like thinking about money wasted. I had a really nice dress I ordered from Sears I think and it was the first dress that fit right and looked right. I remember when it got delivered it was so cool. That dress was one that got purged when my dad died.

Quote from: 2cherry on November 25, 2016, 05:38:54 AM
Not once.

But I had tiny purges, for example, where I would get angry and say: Okay then!!! if you want me to be male, here's male!! let's fight like men then!!! *raising my fists* to a stranger who insulted me when I just started.

I was extremely angry and would have crushed the guy if I didn't come back to my senses. Getting insulted in the first months is just soul crushing.

I was like: if you think I am a male, let me pretend you are right and kick your ***! I was involved in a number of street fights throughout my life, so I wasn't afraid at all.

Kinda embarrassing when I look back, but I felt I had no choice. 

J had that kind of anger , but when I started using estrogen it all sort of went away

Quote from: stephaniec on November 25, 2016, 06:11:37 AM
J had that kind of anger , but when I started using estrogen it all sort of went away

That anger was horrible... but indeed, the hormones...

Always thought I was a little odd that I never did a "classic purge". When the guilt and shame got to much to handle I would box up my girl things and bury them in the back of the closet or in the attic. Only time anything got thrown out was if it no longer fit, was wore out or I just didn't like the style of something anymore. Go figure ? Jessica.

Only for poor style choices, I figure iyam whut iyam an' it's all whut iyam :-)

About twice really, did I totally purge, in my 20's. From then on, I kept all my stuff, since from my 30's and onward I felt that this dysphoria was not going away, so from my 30's and onward I kept my stuff, to this day. More scholarly stuff, like books and articles dealing with ->-bleeped-<- really.