Hello! I've been a member of this forum before but I forgot my name... It's been about 5 years since then and I've had no luck finding any of my old posts so I guess I'll start a fresh account.

I am FtM, and I just recently started presenting as male again. 5 years ago I was presenting as male and looking into starting T but my father didn't approve of it so I gave up everything just so he would be happy. I even started wearing makeup but I just felt like an empty shell. I was severely dissociated for all of that time. My father recently passed away and I have been doing a lot of self reflection, and now I am kicking myself for not sticking with transitioning. I am living in a new state now, and there seem to be many more trans resources here than there were in my previous place of residence. Planning on starting therapy ASAP and coming out to my family.

It's good to be back here! Looking forward to not being a lurker anymore lol

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Hi Lacrimosa, welcome back to Susan's. I can relate to putting things on hold due to others. I did that do to my family at one point before having to transition anyways. Congrats on getting started on things again. I look forward to seeing you around the forums. Good luck and Hugs
Mariah