Hi everyone,

Im kinda new here, Ive read a lot here but i have now joined and decided it was time to say Hi.....

So today I finally got up the courage to tell my doctor that I think I'm transgender and asked for a referral to speak to someone that can help me work out where i fit in???

So, about me.... Im 30, i live in a small city in QLD Australia.  I feel like I have hit my "rock bottom" but in saying that I have felt wrong for so many years, and had up and down depression for about 5 years.  It all started when I started high school, I noticed all the older boys starting to turn into men and it was like a total fear!!!  I didn't want to look like that, the body hair, changing body shape, masculine face, and they all smell, lol!! But I didn't understand why, and i just couldn't say anything..... So here I am, 15 years later very confused and still in fear of how i feel or how i look.

I did try 3 years ago, I told my then Boyfriend of 7 years, and the reaction was so bad I just pushed my feeling back in.

Even as a gay men, i have always been a "man"  Ive had my cars, racing, motor bikes, i have worked in automotive and done mechanic work.

I don't feel ready to tell my friends and family yet, I need to sort out my feelings first

So now i have to try and stay strong, not let myself push this back inside and let out my happy again

Welcome to Susan's Place. You should feel like you are at home here because the second most popular country on the site is Australia. You are a bit early as I am finishing off my day and people from Australia are just starting to wander in.

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Hi Jacinta 

Welcome to Susan's Place    Glad to have you here, join on in the fun

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Hello,

Welcome and congratulations on making your first steps. There are many wonderful and amazing women here with years of wisdom.

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Hey,

Thanks for the welcome.

I have my first therapy appointment on monday.  Totally did not expect to get in this fast, when i called she said they had a cancelled appointment and i could go monday other wise wait until late January.  I was up to me? they said if its all moving to fast i can wait.... May as well rip that bandaid off and go for it!!!!!!!!

Quote from: Jacinta on December 01, 2016, 12:51:39 AM
Hey,

Thanks for the welcome.

I have my first therapy appointment on monday.  Totally did not expect to get in this fast, when i called she said they had a cancelled appointment and i could go monday other wise wait until late January.  I was up to me? they said if its all moving to fast i can wait.... May as well rip that bandaid off and go for it!!!!!!!!

Hey,
     Welcome to the forum. I am 21 and I have my appointment with a psychiatrist and I am planning to come out to him. I have 4 hours left till the appointment.
     Can you please tell me how you approached the subject? I am feeling really scared and constantly thinking about the scenario.

Hey Saira,

I went to my doctor because I've been very down and depressed for many years and getting worse, it was during our conversation about what has been going on that i decided to try and bring it up and be honest with myself that this is most likely a big part of why.  I was very worried, and getting the words out was very hard and emotional, but finally saying the words was also a relief of a lot of built up inner pain.  I had a female doctor, she was understanding and refured me to a local gender therapist.

I hope this helps.
Good luck and best wishes for your appointment.

Jacinta.

Quote from: Jacinta on December 01, 2016, 04:51:35 AM
Hey Saira,

I went to my doctor because I've been very down and depressed for many years and getting worse, it was during our conversation about what has been going on that i decided to try and bring it up and be honest with myself that this is most likely a big part of why.  I was very worried, and getting the words out was very hard and emotional, but finally saying the words was also a relief of a lot of built up inner pain.  I had a female doctor, she was understanding and refured me to a local gender therapist.

I hope this helps.
Good luck and best wishes for your appointment.

Jacinta.

I am sorry for the late reply. My appointment went well. Thank you.

It brings so much peace of mind to reveal your secret to someone. I piddled around the subject since 1984. By then I had remarried. But the first time I spoke to a therapist I diverted my attention to stress. I did this five more times, over the years. Always knowing deep inside I was different from my outward persona.  Finally seven months ago I decided I could no longer hide the fact I have spent a life being untrue to myself. I found out more about myself in two hours than I had learned in a lifetime. By the end of my third session, I was in possession of the letter I would need to begin HRT. Four months later, I feel so authentic although I will never pass as I cannot get the surgeries necessary to transition fully. But now that I have come out to everyone that matters, I feel so light. Like the weight of the world is off my shoulders. That alone is priceless.