My dysphoria reappeared 2 month after when i figured that i was ALWAYS in need of hug. I actually prefered hug to sex , i always hated my genitals anyway.(not that we don't have sex together).
Although we are almost half a century apart age wise. I know exactly what you went through. Luckily you made the decisions necessary to find peace of mind. I on the other hand due to the times I hid it as deep as I could for as long as I could. It was only after I could no longer keep it under wraps because of my bad behavior and angriness that I could be truthful to the therapist. We found I was transgender after all and that there is no way I could have kept that fact at bay any longer. The pressure put on myself became unbearable. Now after 4 months of HRT I am starting to feel normal. Like something I have been missing for a long, long time. I must say you look amazing. I am so happy for you. I am envious. I want to give you a big hug, sweetie and tell you everything is going to be alright. You inspire all of us.
<3 Dawn