Why haven't I gone to group therapy yet?
Back in the summer of 2016, I finally made a decision to transition. Got my prescription of hrt was very happy,  But why still didn't I go?
     At the time,  I was afraid to be judged because I still looked like a male,  I didn't want to feel awkward and suddenly show up out of no where and tell a group of strangers I was trans.   At the time I thought group therapy was only for mtf or ftm,  and was still questioning my gender. Now that 4 months has passed,  been on this forum for a while did a bit of extra research on the side.   I found out I might not be MTF.  I might just be non binary/gender fluid. I mean sometimes I do question my male self. Some days I feel my brain is telling my body what are you doing.  And other days my brain and body tells me I just feel great being Mika.
     Getting a bit off topic,  Group therapy is not just for mtf/ftm right?  I just don't want it to be awkward because everyone is transexual and I am the only non-binary.   
Any advice?  And how was your first therapy session? 

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Group therapy is or should be about self discovery. Nobody cares where you are in your transition because everybody has to start somewhere. At my first group meeting, I felt out of place because I had been in therapy almost 5 year and still presenting male where almost everybody in the group was presenting as their desired gender. It took a few meeting to become comfortable with that but in a few months, I was presenting as well. Much of what I use to help others on the site as learned in that group. The therapist was way ahead of his time and taught use what is now the standard treatment and viewpoints used today.

My advice is get to that group meeting and commit to at least 4 meetings. I think you will enjoy the experience and you will get to know others who will become a great help on your journey.

Maybe it was "Group Therapy" under the guise of a TG Support group. Or it wasn't at all. Officially I know a little about individual therapy or a moderated support group. Not an official therapist guided or moderated "Group Therapy". All I can say I after "thinking" I knew all things TG, having been acquiring knowledge and experience sing like the age of 8, I was not prepared at all for the experience of being in a room filled of other people whose feelings, life, and thoughts often mirrored my own.

I started out seven years ago seeing a T friendly therapist. Certainly far from a gender therapist but given I was living in the boonies, the best option. I now see a for real gender therapist now that I am back living in the shadow of NYC. There is world of difference.

There is also a world of difference between a Gender Therapist and talking to/with others with GD.

The style of a therapy group depends on who is running it.  Before joining a group, you should talk to the therapist or coordinator to see if the group is a good fit for you.

Regarding how you present, don't worry about it.  I joined a peer-support (i.e. no therapist) group back in July.  I asked the coordinator ahead of time if it was okay that I was presenting male.  She was very clear that presentation was not a factor, and that I would be welcome no matter how I was presenting.  I went to my first session presenting totally masculine (I had, by that time, at least shaved off my beard!), but I introduced myself as Kathy, MTF.  Everyone was fine with that, because they had all been in a similar position at one point.  I now present as feminine, with makeup and wig, and more often a skirt than pants.

We have had another member join since I did, who is not comfortable yet about presenting as female.  Her first time at the group, she had not picked out a name yet.  We addressed her as "hey you" in fun, because we didn't want to use her deadname, and now she has a proper feminine name.  She still dresses masculine, but now has a more feminine hair style.

Part of the joy of a group is seeing the visible progress that members make in the course of their transition, as well as hearing about the invisible progress.

The point is to not feel self conscious.  A good group will be totally accepting of who you are and how you present. 

I have been attending a support group since this past summer, presenting as male which is what I have been presenting for the past 50 years.  It is a huge step and I will tell you that I am not the only one there who is not presenting in my desired gender.  I think the biggest thing is to go, meet a few folks, and who knows, you might even find someone in a similar situation as yourself.  It does get us out of our comfort zone but once I have taken that first step out the door each month, I soooo look forward to seeing everyone and NOT feel judged for who I am!  If fact, I told my wife first, she encouraged me to go and the next week (just so happened that was when the next group met), I told 30+ people what I had kept a secret for more than 50 years!  It was a relief, but you know what, there were people there just like you who said that they were not sure and nobody judged anybody!  Only support and encouragement from every person in the room!!  I encourage you to give it a try!!