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Trying to Find Myself

Started by Shirley/Adam, January 11, 2017, 06:46:53 PM

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Shirley/Adam

So I grew up playing lacrosse and enjoying most sports and I still do today. I was often competitive and had more guy friends than girl friends. I have always believed in gender equality and don't like gender stereotypes of people. I was bullied in seventh and eighth grade, but high school was great for me during the first few years. In sophomore year, I joined the gymnastics team and had lots of fun; I felt I was where I belonged. Yet toward the middle of the season (late august), a guy called me weak and was being sexist, but I let that memory go, thinking it was gone. Until junior year of high school after gym class, (march) a guy was also being sexist and called me ugly so it triggered the memories again since I didn't have the support of my gymnastics teammates, being that I had to quit after ap classes. Junior year was a bit tough, but i had friends and i enjoyed most of my classes. however, after that incident in march, I started feeling self-conscious of myself thinking I wasn't good enough as a girl. also there had been other events that had upset me before hand that had piled up so i felt a bit overwhelmed and come the summer time i was very insecure and wanted to hide myself. i admit i have always been a tomboy, but there is a feminine side to me. so i'm not sure whether i want to be female or male. lately, i want to be classified with no gender.
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SailorMars1994

Hey my feel unsure buddy :D! i am similiar in many ways, tho on the opposite side, i am a AMAB. I remember as a kid being mocked and ridiculed for being not man enough by a few. Im an odd bag of tricks, i truly desire to be a woman and wish i was born female, other times i feel this male-ish-ness, i dont like it at all but its hard to shake off. So with all that doubt i basically just live in the middle or not really either i guess is a right term
AMAB Born: March 1994
Gender became on radar: 2007
Admitted to self : 2010
Came out: May 12 2014
Estrogen: October 16 2015
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Satinjoy

Bullying is never easy, this demand to be one ore the other.  I am nonbinary, the profile pic can be misleading.  Or perhaps miss leading lol.

We determine our self worth, those who are forcing their way of life on us do not.

I suggest you just "be", wild and happy and free, and explore your gender as it comes to you, as it surely will.

The more you are true to yourself, the better your life will be, imo.

So celebrate you, embrace your journey and follow your road to the rainbows end.

Satin Joy.
Morpheus: This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the red pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the little blue pills - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes

Sh'e took the little blue ones.
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