I had really been looking forward to seeing a gender therapist, and my eagerness was rewarded.
She already helped me start along the path of confidence that I need to broach the subject with my wife that no, I really didn't just want to wear a woman's outfit from time to time. Really (here come the all caps) I HAVE ALWAYS NEEDED TO TRANSITION to living the rest of my life AS A WOMAN. I don't quite have the spine to say it now, but from my feeling today after my first appointment with this wonderful professional, I know that I will soon, and more than likely our marriage will survive this. My wife has already demonstrated that she is an angel of mercy and did not throw me out 3+ years ago when I turned to alcohol and anger after her business failure. She forgave me for the alcohol and anger. I, of course, no longer care about the financial problems back then that she takes the blame for. We still have our house, we still have our beach property, I still surf, and I have a new motorcycle. We still have our marriage after more horrible challenges than me needing to transition.

(Since I want an orchiectomy, I wll not say I need to be brave and have a pair. The proper thing for someone like me who wants to surgically lose the testosterone making icky things down there, I need to have a spine.)

Congratulations, Donna!  That is a huge step to take.  And you've got a pretty special wife there.  Good luck, and enjoy the ride ahead.  May it be smooth and fruitful.

- Michelle



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Quote from: Donna on January 05, 2017, 08:36:44 PM
I had really been looking forward to seeing a gender therapist, and my eagerness was rewarded.
She already helped me start along the path of confidence that I need to broach the subject with my wife that no, I really didn't just want to wear a woman's outfit from time to time. Really (here come the all caps) I HAVE ALWAYS NEEDED TO TRANSITION to living the rest of my life AS A WOMAN. I don't quite have the spine to say it now, but from my feeling today after my first appointment with this wonderful professional, I know that I will soon, and more than likely our marriage will survive this. My wife has already demonstrated that she is an angel of mercy and did not throw me out 3+ years ago when I turned to alcohol and anger after her business failure. She forgave me for the alcohol and anger. I, of course, no longer care about the financial problems back then that she takes the blame for. We still have our house, we still have our beach property, I still surf, and I have a new motorcycle. We still have our marriage after more horrible challenges than me needing to transition.

(Since I want an orchiectomy, I wll not say I need to be brave and have a pair. The proper thing for someone like me who wants to surgically lose the testosterone making icky things down there, I need to have a spine.)

Isn't it great to finally get all that off your chest. I know what a relief it can be. My first day with the Therapist was revelatory in that I always knew I favored female things. Like clothes. the way they converse with one another, nurturing nature, their approach to problem solving by consensus, lack of ego. I dreamed, I begged and I pleaded. The second visit Misty finally answered the question on my mind all these years. Why would I allow my wife to leave without a fight. She was my Alpha and Omega. Turns out I am not just a crossdresser. I am actually transgender. Four and 1/2 months on HRT and I am beginning to come to grips with what an opportunity this is finish my life with a clear head and some semblance of humanity.