Hello everyone!
I have read alot of the posts on here and thought I should join so that I can be better connected with people like me and the support of the forums.
So, I am 34 and in 10 days I am scheduled to start HRT. I am really excited. I haven't felt so alive in forever. I am a little nervous though because I did have high triglicerides about 4 months ago but they may have changed. I don't know if that would keep me from getting my prescription as I have read they can prescribe a medication along with estrogen to help with the triglicerides. Other than that I am relatively healthy. I have had Hep C in the past but got rid of it and my liver functions are all in the normal range. Just my triglycirides WERE high like 5 months ago. I had my GP tell me, but the last test they were fine. So, I guess I am a little nervous because this is really important to me.
And of course I wish I would have started sooner. I have known I was female since my childhood. I always used to pray to God that I would wake up as a woman. And if I was lucky I would have a dream that I was in my right body and never wanted to wake up. I knew about the possibility of changing my physical body at an early age, but I was in doubt that I would make a decent looking woman until all of the youtubers showed me the amazing effects of hormones and surgery.
Anyhow, I have found a therapists that offers an assessment for gender confirming hormones in one session and I see her Tuesday. See seems like she is easy to work with and just from the little bit of conversations we had over email, she seems like she is going to write my referral letter with no problem. I have expressed to her that I need it by January 31st because I have my HRT apointment then. She said I am all set though. Her exact words. So it sounds like everything is going to work out.
As you can probably tell, I am really anxious about getting everything taken care of so I can start my treatment. I don't look feminine yet and don't want to go out in public dressed as I wish I could, because I would just be putting a target on my back. I really hope she doesn't look at me and see me as being too masculine looking and then deny my letter, but I don't want to to see her dressed as a female until the HRT starts to feminize my appearance some so that I can at least look androgynous. I am also, nervous about how much HRT will actually feminize my body because I am 34. I wish I would have started sooner, but I didnt have the courage then. Any feedback is very welcome. I know im kinda all over the place.
Thanks and ttyl.
kind regards,
Vanessa
