Hi Madison,
Welcome back,
Yes, losing your wife does suck. Unfortunately it does happen all to often to people like us. My own put up with me for more than 20 years. My gender issues certainly played a part in that. I hold no grudges as at the time it was probably the best thing she could have done for herself.
Congratulations on your HRT progress. You are ahead of me by 3 months. Perhaps as you relate your experiences here it will help other like myself who trod the road behind you.
luv
Jeanette