I encourage you to watch this CNN clip of Van Jone re: first time he knew he was black and how it has caused him to forever be cautious of people. I didnt have he same experience, obviously but the I do have the same distrust and caution around people. His story is heartbreaking and familiar.

http://www.cnn.com/videos/us/2017/01/26/first-time-realized-black-van-jones-ts-orig.cnn/video/playlists/atv-promo-cnn-originals/