Good morning
Due to a bit of fear, I've waited 53 years to open up to others that inside my male physical body, there has been a woman wanting to let everyone know she's in there trying to make herself known. I've shown the tendencies my whole life, so my wife Jane wasn't too surprised, but we're just a bit apprehensive about our future.  She is being very supportive but isn't ready for a nail polish party.  I wrote and sent a letter early this week to my mental health professional I've seen for a year, as I have an appointment next Friday.  I told her of my experiences and feelings of my from my first experience at the age of 5 to today. 
I feel awesome about coming out, but my love and concern for my spouse and family are a worry.  Not to mention work and others who will find out soon. The construction industry doesn't have much of the way of Transgender girls around, or any for that matter that I've found
But I've made the right decision, now I'm just thinking about the yellow brick road I've put myself on, as it may have a few bumps and maybe a few wicked witches on it to test my resolve.

  Hi Ellen,

  Hi and welcome to The Place. Feel free to come on in, take a seat and get comfortable. Most of us here don't bite. Well okay maybe a nibble here and there.

   I'm Jeanette and pretty darned new here also. Like you I was a late starter for much the same concern you voiced.
I waited 64 years to get this roller coaster refurbished and started up that first hill. I said "darn it I'm going to do this thing and started HRT a little over 2 months ago. With that my personal roller coaster reached the top of the hill and has plunged down at breakneck speed. Okay okay maybe not that fast but the ride has definitely started.

  I'm happy for you that you have a supportive wife standing at your side. Cherish that woman!  I LOVE nail polish! and heels, and dresses, and earrings, and... well you get the idea. Why not a polish party? Even if I can only wear mine for a couple hours at a time it's nice to see on my fingers.
  Telling you therapist is a very good thing. It is highly suggested here as he/she can help you with those feelings and fears. He/she will help you explore and come to grips with your demons. At least I hope that is the case as I start seeing one in a week or so.
   Feel free to ask questions here too. There are a lot of more knowledgeable folks than I here that will give you help where they can.

  You've start the ride now, sit back and enjoy it.

   Hugs,
    Jeanette

Hi Ellen 

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Quote from: Ellen G on February 11, 2017, 09:11:52 AM
Good morning
Due to a bit of fear, I've waited 53 years to open up to others that inside my male physical body, there has been a woman wanting to let everyone know she's in there trying to make herself known. I've shown the tendencies my whole life, so my wife Jane wasn't too surprised, but we're just a bit apprehensive about our future.  She is being very supportive but isn't ready for a nail polish party.  I wrote and sent a letter early this week to my mental health professional I've seen for a year, as I have an appointment next Friday.  I told her of my experiences and feelings of my from my first experience at the age of 5 to today. 
I feel awesome about coming out, but my love and concern for my spouse and family are a worry.  Not to mention work and others who will find out soon. The construction industry doesn't have much of the way of Transgender girls around, or any for that matter that I've found
But I've made the right decision, now I'm just thinking about the yellow brick road I've put myself on, as it may have a few bumps and maybe a few wicked witches on it to test my resolve.

Hi Ellen

SNAP...I am also 53 and have been transitioning since September 2015 and HRT about 8 months...Welcome, it is great to finally start talking about what has been driving you nuts all these years...it is so good for the soul!!!

Families can be really difficult and it is such a hit and miss process as to who will be fine and who won't...but at the end of the day you are doing this for you...you as a happier and healthier version of yourself. My wife and I are probably closer now that at any time in our marriage and she is not at the "nail polish party" time either but each and every day she moves forward with me. I am grateful for her love and compassion. It has not been all plain sailing for me or my family but we continue to work at it.

I don't know what the future holds other than it has both my wife and I in it. Time will tell

Hugs

Liz

Thanks Liz!

It is great to hear that I'm not alone, you are awesome!  Finding this site was a blessing, there is a a lot of love and respect and exchange of stories which strengthens us all.

Hugs

Ellen

Hi Ellen

Our journeys seem to be starting in our 50's, mine started this year at 56.
I bet your nail polish parties will rock once the dust settles, I wish you and your partner happy times ahead.
Seems you've already found your courage, heart and brain, looks like the witches on the yellow brick road are toast. But I get the sentiment, it's a challenging road we travel with some pretty steep hills and winding rivers to cross. But ultimately the destination is the freedom to be yourself wherever you travel.

shy