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the evil substance's going to come back

Started by Xirafel, February 16, 2017, 09:48:08 AM

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Xirafel

my pills are running out... the evil drug will be back...
it'll make me hurt my friends and family... that horrible substance.. what's the point anymore..

i should burn and burn and burn until that abomination never comes back  >:(
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SidneyAldaine

Don't burn anything. You probably have some time before T takes control, use it to figure out how to get more pills.

On the side note, I'm really happy that you showed up! ☺

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Dena

I am going to tell you something you may not want to hear. The transition is difficult, time consuming and a painful process. The only ones who should undertake it are the ones who have the determination to see it through to the end. Therapist look for this ability in their patients and if it is lacking, they attempt to work with the patient to build this ability  in them.

What does the therapist look for? The look for an adult, responsible person who will follow instructions that are provide by the medical staff. If you behave with your therapist as you do on the site, I suspect it will be a very long time before you  receive professional treatment. I suggest you sit down with your therapist and be honest without dramatics. Show that you are adult and are ready to become a partner in your treatment. You may find doors that have been closed to you open for the first time.
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Xirafel

Quote from: Dena on February 16, 2017, 02:57:29 PM
I am going to tell you something you may not want to hear. The transition is difficult, time consuming and a painful process. The only ones who should undertake it are the ones who have the determination to see it through to the end. Therapist look for this ability in their patients and if it is lacking, they attempt to work with the patient to build this ability  in them.

What does the therapist look for? The look for an adult, responsible person who will follow instructions that are provide by the medical staff. If you behave with your therapist as you do on the site, I suspect it will be a very long time before you  receive professional treatment. I suggest you sit down with your therapist and be honest without dramatics. Show that you are adult and are ready to become a partner in your treatment. You may find doors that have been closed to you open for the first time.
Won't help. All my rational thought is shutdown without estrogen. Seen it happen.
It's like constantly being on drugs and never being able to think straight.

You're barking up the wrong tree. Truth be told, I'm not sure burning it would even restore my rationality, as my body doesn't produce estrogen. That might be the factor. My body's defective, chemicals it should produce aren't produced and those which are poisonous to me are.

It's a medical condition not a psychological condition, trash therapists have no right over this territory to begin with. If I become a billionaire, I will lobby the government to get their rights revoked x.x
If only I had money, money produces all sorts of miracles, mm. I could even buy the pharmaceutical company which produces my pills, if I was a billionaire. Bayer Pharmaceuticals.

Quote from: SidneyAldaine on February 16, 2017, 12:13:33 PM
Don't burn anything. You probably have some time before T takes control, use it to figure out how to get more pills.

On the side note, I'm really happy that you showed up! ☺
You're happy? :o
I didn't think anyone here liked me. Nice. Thanks.

I've told my psychologist a fair, fair bit. Burning that stupid thing, etc. I didn't tell her that I've been taking these pills, as I kind of went behind her back and I didn't want her to pull shenanigans to get it stopped, but it's not like she can go back in time and stop me now that it's running out, so maybe I should tell her? Or not? So many positive benefits from it o.o

Hang on, let me get you a list, I might need this later, possibly for that psychologist:

  • Fixed my ridiculous sleep cycle. It was ridiculous! Like 9pm to 12am o.o
  • Mental and Emotional Stability. You don't know how impulsive and mentally unstable I was on that horrible stuff. I can kind of think rationally now, mm.
  • Improved creativity, cognitive abilities and concentration
  • Better relatability. I can relate to other people better now o.o
  • I have a stronger attachment to my other name, not the mean one the meanies use and I refer to myself as a girl a ton without going into how I'm crazy in my head
  • I'm not spending a good portion of the day staring listlessly into the void

Really? There's time? It doesn't just kick in again? :o
Urmm, urmm... How long does it take? What should I do?
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Xirafel

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QuoteI am going to tell you something you may not want to hear.
It's more the tone and the way you say it. It feels like someone talking down to me.
I am going to tell you something you may not want to hear.

This is a forum. The people on here are random people scattered across the globe. I have no clue who anyone here is to begin with. Everyone on the internet acts as if they're a professional or an authority figure, so it can get grating after a while.

Sorry, that was slightly uncalled for.
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SidneyAldaine

Of course there is some time but who knows how long..im not so lucky and can't yet get my hands on HRT. But I would say there is definitely some time before processes in your body get back on the old track.

You are welcome, I've noticed you because of your kawaii avatar 😊

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"When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it."

- Paulo Coelho

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LizK

Quote from: Xirafel on February 18, 2017, 06:45:33 AM
It's more the tone and the way you say it. It feels like someone talking down to me.
I am going to tell you something you may not want to hear.

This is a forum. The people on here are random people scattered across the globe. I have no clue who anyone here is to begin with. Everyone on the internet acts as if they're a professional or an authority figure, so it can get grating after a while.

Sorry, that was slightly uncalled for.

Hi Xirafel

We are on your side...there are many here who would help in a heartbeat if they knew what you would like help with. What can we do as a community to help you get through this awful time you are having?

take care

Liz


Transition Begun 25 September 2015
HRT since 17 May 2016,
Fulltime from 8 March 2017,
GCS 4 December 2018
Voice Surgery 01 February 2019
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