Rough first night last night.
The pain meds aren't really taking the edge off my pain, but I can sleep. It's not a sharp, piercing pain, but it is a dull constant pain...like sitting on a pointy rock.
I feel a sense of peace descending upon me like I have never felt before. I am finally me, the girl I was supposed to be all along in life.
I know there's things I can never change (DNA, chromosomes, genetics, my height, my feet and hand size, my broad shoulders...but its not about that. It never was.) It's about matching my body to my mind
Back to last night, my nurse was the single worst nurse I have ever had in my life. Inconsiderate, bringing me things I didnt ask for and did not need, very inattentive and didnt listen at all. On top of all that she made a major sanitation and sterility violation. She used her bare hands to empty my drains down in my pubic area, that drain the excess blood from the vaginal canal. Didn't wear gloves and she just laughed when I brought it to her attention. That <person> will NOT be back tonight, I've made that absolutely clear and am waiting to speak with her supervisor now.
She claims she washed her hands but I didnt see her do that or hear any running water. All it takes is touching those drains for germs and contamination to spread into the nozzle and get in my bloodstream and I could get sick really bad and die. [emoji35]
I hope today is better and tonight too because it's been a little rough to say the least. Despite this, I'm still in good spirits and being positive.
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