I just want to see the me that I always imagined in my head. The me that had muscle definition and a more square face and a deeper voice. I new that no amount of exercise could give me the body that I imagined myself having. For me, taking T isn't about how other people see me, it's more about how I see me in the mirror.

I wasn't 100% when I got my first shot but I also knew that I could stop anytime. I could take one dose and be done. I could do a month, not like the changes and stop right there before anything got too far. The fact taht I knew I could back out at any point really helped me take that first step. I'm just over 2 months now and feeling good!

What I did was list out the pros and cons of it. The pros seemed more worth it than the cons that came along. Plus, I felt like T would totally make me feel more like a man. My feelings were and still are very strong about feeling as much as a man on the outside as I feel on the inside. I don't do it because of how others perceive me though, I just enjoy being able to look at the mirror and see the man I always felt like on the inside looking right back.