Hello everyone!

I found myself in an absurd situation and I hope someone could explain to me what's happening...

In January I had my orhiectomy after 4 years of HRT and I feel and look like I've been detransitioning, which is just inexplicable to me.
I started my estrogen 2 days after the surgery and now I am close to my pre-operative dosage, but what I am experiencing is that my breasts shrinked and now they're almost gone, my buttocks went flat, my arms, legs, and facial hair is increased, my body odour is just like it was before the surgery, while I wasn't taking hormones (a week before the surgery, as requested by the surgeon), and the same as the first months of my HRT 4 years ago.
I am nervous, easily angered, depressed and have angular looks...
I couldn't find any logical explanation for this situation, and for me it's just a paradox...

For the record (I know it's not much ok to talk about this, but it's a matter of life and death) - I am self-medicating, because in Bulgaria there are no specialists on trans issues at all - no competent endocrinologists and doctors in general. I am mentioning that, because I want to clarify, that there's noone to ask about these issues, so I am writing here. I hope that my post doesn't violate any rule... I just have no other choice...

Thank you in advance!

Is there any way you could go to your to your primary care doctor and get blood tests for T and E peridically. Then have her work with you as they learn about trans hormones. You need bioidentical E. If you use progesterone then it needs to be bioidentical too. The recommended dosing is pretty easy for them to find out and from the blood tests they can go from there.

Thank you for your fast reply!

I am doing regular E and T tests and so far everything has been normal for my whole HRT. I haven't done tests after the surgery yet, but I will do them ASAP.
I've been taking only bioidentical hormones for my whole therapy and never experienced any problems, except some minor issues between adjusting the proper dosages - things like too dry or too oily skin, insomnia and occassional sugar or salt cravings. But such things like now - I had similar effects only once, aroung my 11th month of HRT, when I was taking too low dosage of estrogen, while not taking anti-androgen, because of misleading information, I've been given back then.
Right now there is no major source of testosteron production and my estrogen dosages are pretty high now (within recommended limits, of course), so I just can't understand how can I have these effects now...

I had an orchi back in 2011. I remember going through a similar thing right after I had it done. With the help of incompetent quacks that I was seeing due to the loss of my first endocrinologist, I had my HRT dosages increased with no tests of any kind. I did this because I panicked when I thought my T was going back up after the orchi. It was just my body attempting to get itself back in order after losing the twins. Once I was under the care of a much better endo, I went back to my previous dosage. Things were back to normal eventually. I just had to give it time. (Rather than freaking out) But, I can relate to that feeling.

The issue might be self medicating. If you are not getting your HRT through a dependable source, it could be counterfeit and your dosage could be non existent. Blood test will tell you if this is the case but you should try to get a doctor to write a prescription so you can purchase your medications from a dependable source.

Quote from: Dena on March 01, 2017, 08:27:56 PM
The issue might be self medicating. If you are not getting your HRT through a dependable source, it could be counterfeit and your dosage could be non existent.

That was my first thought as well.

Thank you so much for your replies!

So, the estrogen I am taking, is 100% legitimate and I get it from a regular drug store here (don't ask me how - just good people are helping). It's the same thing that I've been taking for my whole HRT and it's been working quite fine, so I have no doubt in its quality, also I do blood tests regularly and I am aware of my optimal dosages. It looks like I just need to give it time... Maybe my age is a factor, because I am 36...?