Have I ever dated another transgender girl? Well, sort of and I feel terrible about what happened. To this day, I hope and wish the opportunity to apologize presents itself so I can explain myself. When I was going through my divorce from my husband and we were separated, I somehow ended up in an online support group. There I met one of the ops and somehow we hit it off so well. Next thing I know, she had flown across the country to meet in person. When I met her at the airport, she was in 'man' mode and imprinted on my brain as man -- and a wow looking man to boot! Super tall blond, blue eyes, body, etc. etc... So yes, it was easy to hug and hug and quick kiss. My gosh, I feel so bad that my mind could not wrap around how he was going to be 'her'. But 'her' she was and I took her up to the mountains after she got in 'female' mode. I know in my heart its what she wanted to be, but unbeknownst to her -- in my heart, I wanted a male. I did not know how to tell her without hurting her feelings because it was so obvious she was head over heels with me. Even wanted to sell her company so we could retire young. I'm just not attracted to females in a sexual way other than as sisters. After she flew back to the east coast, I met my husband and love of my life. I so wanted to tell her everything like a girlfriend, but I knew it would hurt her because of how she felt towards me. As her surprise to me, she flew back to see me again and could not find me (I had gone on a week long excursion with my now hubby). She ended up at one of the nightclubs where a friend of mine worked and was told I was off with my fiancée. UGH... I could scream after I found out. I did not want to hurt her. I wanted to tell her in my own time, but fate revealed it all. That following Monday, I got a phone call from her -- screaming at me and I could hear the hurt through the crying. She hung up and I have never heard from her since. To this day, I wish I could apologize and ask for forgiveness for my idiocy. I hope she stuck to her guns and transitioned physically and completely. She was and is still, I'm certain, a beautiful human being.
Apologies for the long diatribe. Maybe she'll read this post.