Just want the pain to stop.

Quote from: Saira128 on March 22, 2017, 12:29:58 PM
Just want the pain to stop.

Saira, I think I understand that.  Are you doing anything for yourself right now?  I haven't seen any updates from you for a little while.  Any therapy sessions, or starting any medical treatment yet?

Just chatting here might even bring you a little comfort.

Hmmm, I am far from an expert. But seems you have been having these issues for a long time and they are intense. May I suggest a few things that have been suggested to me? Try seeking CBT (cognitive behavior therapy), EMDR or maybe even hypnotherapy. I am in the midst of starting these myself, but they seem to be the most popular and effective when regular talk therapey isnt doing as much as expected. You may also want to talk to your Dr about taking some take as needed medications when you find your less then happy moods increasing. Just suggestions I have to given, lets do them thogether <3

Hugs-Ashley

Cutting yourself is not the answer and neither is self harm.  I would suggest trying to come out to a psychiatrist and work from there.  Doing so would not only help in transition but also in your mental and emotional wellbeing.  I would also see how your best friend responds to hints without dropping the whole subject at once. 


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Quote from: Michelle_P on March 22, 2017, 12:43:19 PM
Saira, I think I understand that.  Are you doing anything for yourself right now?  I haven't seen any updates from you for a little while.  Any therapy sessions, or starting any medical treatment yet?

Just chatting here might even bring you a little comfort.

I am under psychiatric treatment for depression. The doc knows about my gender dysphoria too. But she said, that she will try to control my depression first, and then, we'll talk about my dysphoria.
     I am living with my parents now, I am not living alone. I have joined a gym, I don't skip a day, ever. I have started playing some games on my ps4, I don't do much rest of the day.
     I am stressed out about my exams too, I didn't appear for my exams the last time, I was very depressed, suicidal. Actually, that very day, I came out to my parents.
I have a re-exam in June. I haven't started studying for it yet. Even thinking about studying right now, makes me nauseated.
       This is the story of my life right now, more or less.

Quote from: SailorMars1994 on March 22, 2017, 12:52:28 PM
Hmmm, I am far from an expert. But seems you have been having these issues for a long time and they are intense. May I suggest a few things that have been suggested to me? Try seeking CBT (cognitive behavior therapy), EMDR or maybe even hypnotherapy. I am in the midst of starting these myself, but they seem to be the most popular and effective when regular talk therapey isnt doing as much as expected. You may also want to talk to your Dr about taking some take as needed medications when you find your less then happy moods increasing. Just suggestions I have to given, lets do them thogether <3

Hugs-Ashley

Yes, I have been suggested CBT before.

Just taking it one day or hour at a time is a good choice. Glad to hear you are working out, that usually helps.

Up to your doctors I guess. Might you ask if since a symptom of dysphoria is depression maybe they can take some small steps with you?

Just an idea. Good luck.

With warmth,

Joanna

Quote from: Saira128 on March 23, 2017, 08:29:51 AM
    I am under psychiatric treatment for depression. The doc knows about my gender dysphoria too. But she said, that she will try to control my depression first, and then, we'll talk about my dysphoria.
     I am living with my parents now, I am not living alone. I have joined a gym, I don't skip a day, ever. I have started playing some games on my ps4, I don't do much rest of the day.
     I am stressed out about my exams too, I didn't appear for my exams the last time, I was very depressed, suicidal. Actually, that very day, I came out to my parents.
I have a re-exam in June. I haven't started studying for it yet. Even thinking about studying right now, makes me nauseated.
       This is the story of my life right now, more or less.

Siara, I know it is hard right now, but you are doing all of the right things.  You are showing strength and wisdom in getting into therapy, letting your parents know, moving to live with others, and getting to the gym every day.  These are all great steps to have taken.

I know that with depression, concentration and studying are hard to do.  It is hard to even realize that there might be a future.  Many of us here have lived through similar experiences.  Your strength will serve you well in getting through this and finding your way forward.

Just know that it does get better.  It really does, even when depression hides that better future from us.

You've got a lot going for you, and folks who care about you.  As Joanna says, just take it an hour or a day at a time. 

Hugs,
Michelle

I'm glad you were able to move back home with your parents. It kinda sounds like what you need right now.  I had to move back home with my parents after my suicide attempt/crisis back in 1984.   I lost my job, my apartment and many of my illusions.   I used it as an opportunity to start over after hitting rock bottom.  It took me a long time to rebuild my life. So you are not alone. Lots of us have been in the exact same place you are right now.

And getting exercise at the gym every day sounds sounds like a great idea!