Lately I feel that my life is passing my by.  All I ever do is go to work and come home, watch the stockmarket in the morning and then go to work and the cycle goes on and on.  Every once in a while I go out with friends etc.  but I need more than that in life.  I need an adventure, an awakening rather.  Not to mention a boyfriend.  I am thinking about going through one of those online dating sites.  I know that the chances for love are slim, but I need exposure.  My loop is so closed that I am never going to meet anyone. 

I am trying to get a new job somewhere where I get to meet lots of people.  I am thinking that maybe being a CNA in the float pool at the hospital might be a good one.  A good opportunity to work with different people all the time.  Who knows.  Thanks for listening to my ramble.

Audrey

some times Audrey the cycle does get  very broing and mun dain . and we need the change from time to time

to make things more interesting. maybe  this  CNA in the float pool at the hospital your talking about is

a good thing to check out and get in to . or even something simler to it. as i have had the same problem with

job,s and i have changed jobs a few times. untill i found the job i liked a lot. and everysince i found my job

its like i broke the cycle. and i have not gone threw this since that time.an as for the dateing site. iam sorry

i can not offer some advice as to which one might be the best for you.  only for these 2 reasons one you

have to choose the dateing site you like. and the second one being that i never have looked at or

check out the dateing sites. so iam not sureat all on the dateing sites . but i can  say this every one

needs to ramble some times. it is a good thing so ramble on 

alright debbie you asked for it.

Ramble hmmm.....I used to have a rambler.  a 68 AMC american classic, three on the tree (funnn ),  paid 200 hundred dollars for it.  It was in someones back alley and I drove it out of the ruts that had formed from it sitting so long.  Some fix-a-flat in the tires and fresh gas and I was good to go.  Drove it for about three months untill the starter went out in a parking lot. 

Well so here I am in this big empty parking lot in a car with a bad starter.  Well in Great Falls, MT where I lived at the time it is notoriously windy.  so what do I do?  I opened the doors and trunk and caught enough wind to "sail" across the parking lot, enough to put it in gear and start it. 

Well a new starter was almost half what I paid for the car, and my sister had also creamed it backing out of my parents driveway.  So needless to say it went to the junkyard.

Audrey

PS  one of these days I'll post some pictures of my "Thing".






NO pervert its a car. A VW to be exact.

  i did ask for it Audrey   and i remember that  68 AMC american classic, three on the tree when i was

young:P indeed Great Falls, MT is windy  as i have been past there a few times in my travels

p.s.  cant wait 

now untill the next time i ask for it again 

debbie

Online dating -- ick! You have a problem finding boys, Audrey? You should totally go out, 'cause I can't imagine it would be a problem once you did. To bad you weren't near hear, I'd be dragging you out all of the time. LOL

It's like a few other very pretty people I know, and seem to have problems finding anyone. Me, I just can't get rid of people fast enough; I'm constantly breaking hearts left-right-and-center. And people just don't seem to get it, that I really don't want to date anyone now. After being in a relationship for a year, and then being on a bunch of dates after that, I've decided I want to be single for the next little while. I have no idea why so many people seem attracted to me; it confuses me.

Anyway, good luck Audrey. I'm sure everything will fall in place for you.

--natalie

god why is it that no matter how pretty you are if your history is trans we cant find boys?

ARRRGGHHH, I am losing hope.

I think its in our heads, something to do with confidence maybe?

Hang in there girl, you will, prove its possible for us. lol.

God Mara I hope so.  For example tonite I was at a friends house and she invited some of her guy friends over.  One of them wanted my number so she asked me if she could give it out.  I was basically like "theres no point because when he figures it out hes gonna freak".  I just don't see the point of persuing anything right now without them knowing my history.  If he knew or had a vague notion then yeah, but I am afraid to let my heart get caught up in a relationship right now,  when any intimacy would lead to instant rejection/anger/death.  I am a really sensitive person and am afraid of getting hurt.  I guess I feel like I am in limbo right now.

Audrey   

You probally get that a bit too huh...

Whats a girl to do?

It seems like the only option for us girls is ->-bleeped-<- ->-bleeped-<-s, or FtM's or being lesbian... for us..

Too bad straight normal guys that seem to have the intellect and good looks are not possible in the same configuration.



You know you look very similar to my ex-girlfriend.

I'm the same way Audrey.
What's the point? I waited for 40 years, what's a little more hey...
But, it does suck hard some days.

Sorry mara,

Quotegod why is it that no matter how pretty you are if your history is trans we cant find boys?

GGs complain all the time about this exact problem. It has nothing to do with the trans history. Finding people to hook up with is always problematic. Most advice about how to go about it centers on taking classes or attending events about something you are interested in. That way the people you meet like the same things you like. This is usually considered preferable than just using a dating service where the only objective is hooking up.

Audrey, you are adorable. It is hard to believe that there are not people following down the street everywhere you go.

Quote from: Audrey on February 06, 2008, 04:08:23 AM
God Mara I hope so.  For example tonite I was at a friends house and she invited some of her guy friends over.  One of them wanted my number so she asked me if she could give it out.  I was basically like "theres no point because when he figures it out hes gonna freak".  I just don't see the point of persuing anything right now without them knowing my history.  If he knew or had a vague notion then yeah, but I am afraid to let my heart get caught up in a relationship right now,  when any intimacy would lead to instant rejection/anger/death.  I am a really sensitive person and am afraid of getting hurt.  I guess I feel like I am in limbo right now.

Audrey   

audrey hun  i know what you mean. but maybe  even if it does hurt us sometimes audrey . um maybe

limbo is the place we need to be sometimes to keep us safe. and to give us some room to beath. and to

think things all the way threw .  hugs audrey hun 

Posted on: February 06, 2008, 11:18:25 AM

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Quote from: mara on February 06, 2008, 02:04:38 AM
god why is it that no matter how pretty you are if your history is trans we cant find boys?

( indeed mara it ant easy )

ARRRGGHHH, I am losing hope.

(maybe when we are looseing hope mara hun . maybe thats the time that we need to grab ahold  of hope

and hold on it as hard as we can . so please dont loose hope NEVER LOOSE HOPE  THAT GOES FOR YOU

TOO AUDREY !)

I think its in our heads, something to do with confidence maybe?
( um could be  mara but some how iam not so sure about that . and maybe it has something to  do with

confidence.
Hang in there girl, you will, prove its possible for us. lol. (indeed  and we all can prove it is possible for all of
us)

Posted on: February 06, 2008, 11:28:12 AM

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Quote from: saraswatidevi on February 06, 2008, 08:12:33 AM
Sorry mara,

Quotegod why is it that no matter how pretty you are if your history is trans we cant find boys?

GGs complain all the time about this exact problem. It has nothing to do with the trans history. Finding people to hook up with is always problematic. Most advice about how to go about it centers on taking classes or attending events about something you are interested in. That way the people you meet like the same things you like. This is usually considered preferable than just using a dating service where the only objective is hooking up.

Audrey, you are adorable. It is hard to believe that there are not people following down the street everywhere you go.

indeed saraswatidevi  very well put!