So after 1yr hrt im beginning to notice constantly comparing myself to other females, resulting in me feeling like i will never pass.
My question is.
is the feeling a confusion of worrying about not passing or the general feeling people get (i said people because it applies to all humans) when they see another person (female in my case) that is beautifully female, and has features  you would adore to have yourself.

Rita
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Yes, it is very normal. Perhaps, because men don't typically feel this way, we take it as being abnormal. Poll 100 women sometime though. 😊

I used to love Christina Ferrari and Rosie Vela. I dreamed of being as beautiful. I dreamed of cover shoots and being noticed for my good looks. I still look at a beautiful woman and think "What if" What can I say? I'm vain.

Yes, even after 14 yrs of being on HRT, attracting plenty of guys and passing without a problem. Even the most "beautiful" ciswomen compare themselves, envy other women and dislike things about themselves. Welcome to womanhood...and the passing thing, it gets better with time...you just don't care so much after awhile of being out and about and you gain confidence in time. Just get out there as much as you can, do what you can to put all the chances on your side and be brave and PROUD.