Since my early teens, I had a lot of discomfort with photos and videos of me.  I recently have been able to determine it's mostly linked to dysphoria.  I notice a lot of trans people are comfortable documenting their progress or showing before and after images.  I did go through a phase of trying to document  transition progress and trying to enjoy photographing myself as the correct gender.  I ended up discarding all photos and videos documenting my progress, because when I look at that person in a state of misery caused by dysphoria it seems too tragic.

I feel left out.  Does anyone else have this sort of feeling?

Yes and double yes. These feeling are perfectly normal. I felt this way for many years. What we see in the mirror is not how we think of ourselves. Many of us have come to the conclusion that, if we need to change something, then, change it, if we can.

Patience is your best friend. These changes do not happen in a week or month and often take many years to display any significant change.

I also destroyed many old photos. Now I regret having done so.

Keep in mind that physical appearance is only one aspect of who we are. Self acceptance is the most important part of transition. Even when you complete transition, you only changed a small part of your body. The rest is still you. You may look a little different, but you are still the same person.

yes I hate having my picture taken i hate I don't see what i feel

I hate taking pictures of myself, with family or for anything. I hate it! It's for me awful. It never came to me why I did until I realized who I am. It used to be your so ugly and just I hated looking at me. I know now the disconnect like I know the person in the picture but Im not you as well if that makes sense. It's similar to hearing my voice as well. It's rare Im okay taking a picture with anyone or letting anyone take a picture of me.

It doesnt cause me as much dysphoria since my hair has grown out so much but it's still uncomfortable for me. Your def not alone!

I'm always standing at the back of any family photo looking really uncomfortable and awkward.
When the photo albums come out on occasions I pretend to be asleep or leave the room.

There's a particular photo taken a few years back in which I looked as feminine as I ever have and I daresay I look attractive in it. I don't hate that picture at all, in fact I've kept it as a rare example in which I thought I looked "all right" or even more than all right in a photo, and one that wasn't messed with in any way to hide or improve anything. I guess I'm just kind of wowed by the fact that photo is of me, because I typically don't think I look great.

But in general, most photos look lousy and I hardly keep any of me.

I've not bothered taking pre and post images either for comparison in transition, being tired as I am of looking at myself. Maybe in a while I just won't care because I'll look more acceptable in some way. Most of the time when I've looked at myself in photos I always felt I looked odd and out of place. Those old school photos look hilariously bad to me.   

Photos of me generally show the 'hiding' garments that I wear - baggy loose soft T's and shorts, careworn enough to be clearly not run of the mill, and generally looked after, but stance, and body reveal me - it's visible enough to make folk very uncomfortable when I grow my hair, and then they pile on the gender conformity nonsense... As I'm hiding in plain sight, photos feel intrusive, and there are very few that I like.

So, in a word, yes, perfectly normal

Rowan

I have a drawer in my kitchen full of old family photos and all of the photos of male me.  I open it maybe once a year. Or less. 

"We both know what memories can bring. They bring diamonds and rust."
-Joan Baez

Yep, I do hate seeing photos of me as a "guy"
And I hate pics of me as a female that i think looks masculine. It makes me feel like crud...
But my brother told me i should keep taking photos to document it, and it is terribly interesting to see the differences.
But the more and more i look more female as time passes, the more i notice the others looking masculine and want to deleate the older photos :')
But anyway it is all part of our passage and for me I prefer to be happy with my life, even if its not exactly how I would have lived it had I had the choice.
Definitely understand though

Yup. I actually did a thread of a picture of me from recent and a picture of me from 2013 when i was somehow a ''man''. That ''man'' photo had disturbed me for sometime, as with bascially all photos older then a year/ year and a half. You are not alone in these feels and they are very very common. Still, i hope my photos shed some hope to others. You can go from gross and masculine to a happy authentic female

Hugs-Ashley

All my life I have intentionally avoided getting my picture taken.  It was always a mentally stressful situation getting my male image captured.  It makes it easier being the photographer behind the camera.

I've always avoided cameras like the plague. Even as a little kid, I actively tried to dodge my way out of any shots before the shutter would go off, and as an adult I just stood there awkward and frustrated waiting for it to end. The fact that I have relatives who insist on taking full family photos at every get together has made me detest seeing anyone on my mother's side entirely.