I don't have any friends or anyone to talk to. Maybe I am not worth talking to honestly , I am negative and I complain quite a lot.

I am burdened by not being able to express myself in a way that I would like and fail just to fit in with society. I mean I am really no good with people and because of it , I am in tough place financially (unemployed) and still live with conservative family , who would be quite against the idea of me being anything other than CIS Hetero male , which I doubt I am at all.

Right now I am just super sad , don't know if I can take much more of the miserable train wreck know as my life. I feel like crying but no tears will even come out , just pain in my heart that continues to weep.

What do you want?

If money wasn't an issue, what would you do for a living?

Where would you live?

Suppression of one's nature and desires is said to be the underlying reason for most unhappiness and sickness.

Luckily, we create our own realities, simply by making decisions.

Quote from: Raell on May 07, 2017, 07:12:25 AM
What do you want?

If money wasn't an issue, what would you do for a living?

Where would you live?

Suppression of one's nature and desires is said to be the underlying reason for most unhappiness and sickness.

Luckily, we create our own realities, simply by making decisions.

I don't know what I really want or what I would I be doing if I had money.

While I don't have place that I want to go to , being far away from my family and being able to fully cut ties to them is ideal.

But as much pain as it brings me , its only way that I can survive.

No decision to do anything will make me able to accomplish anything.

been there, done that ; just do it, you will find a way, or, you dont do it and up being miserable (considering your vague insecurity about what exactly you want, i would take a moment to reconsider all the facts however)

It sounds like your still in school to me, in which case you still have plenty time to figure all this kind of stuff out, at least to some degree or another (nobody ever figures everything out). As for lacking friends, welcome to the club, unfortunately there is no secret handshake or any other nifty things. Have you tried keeping a diary/journal? Believe it or not, it can be exceptionally therapeutic just to jot down how you feel or what your thinking. I kid you not. As far as being lonely, there is usually someone around here to talk to. Yes I know, it's not the same thing, but at least you know someone here will at least get the gist of how you feel.

kallaran, I'm going to let you in on a little secret... people suck, society sucks, there is no such thing as normal. Seriously, look up normal in the dictionary.

I'm going to quote a motivational poster here: Today is a good day to have a good day, go forth and conquer.

Quote from: Geeker on May 07, 2017, 10:01:27 AM
It sounds like your still in school to me, in which case you still have plenty time to figure all this kind of stuff out, at least to some degree or another (nobody ever figures everything out). As for lacking friends, welcome to the club, unfortunately there is no secret handshake or any other nifty things. Have you tried keeping a diary/journal? Believe it or not, it can be exceptionally therapeutic just to jot down how you feel or what your thinking. I kid you not. As far as being lonely, there is usually someone around here to talk to. Yes I know, it's not the same thing, but at least you know someone here will at least get the gist of how you feel.

kallaran, I'm going to let you in on a little secret... people suck, society sucks, there is no such thing as normal. Seriously, look up normal in the dictionary.

I'm going to quote a motivational poster here: Today is a good day to have a good day, go forth and conquer.

I am not in school , dont know how I gave that impression. I know that the world sucks , that why I am close to not being apart of it.

Quote from: sora_ on May 07, 2017, 09:50:55 AM
been there, done that ; just do it, you will find a way, or, you dont do it and up being miserable (considering your vague insecurity about what exactly you want, i would take a moment to reconsider all the facts however)

I am already not finding a way and I am really miserable , so I am already on the dark road to nowhere.

I know the pain of loneliness, I don't have many friends either, and as an adult it's become much harder to make friends. The worst thing you can do, is do what I do and isolate yourself. Isolation just makes things worse, and it's something I personally need to work on.

The best thing you can do is seek out like-minded individuals that you have something in common with, join a group, either offline or online, I've established some friendships with people online, and it's helped me immensely to deal with the pain of being alone. I think the way the internet breaks down barriers between people makes it easier.

And hey, if you're up for it, I'll be your friend.