Angelique, I'm not going to try to diagnose or fix any of the potential health issues you have. I'm just going to say, that I'm really concerned about you. I've been following your posts for months on this board and what I've noticed is you really struggle with low self-esteem to the point that (as someone else mentioned) it's almost an obsessive behavior for you.
Yet every picture I've ever seen you post, you look absolutely gorgeous. You are a beautiful young woman and you should be proud of your transition thus far. I understand right now you're having some issues with weight loss and it sounds like maybe finances as well. That can be difficult and should be your focus right now. I really feel that you are far too critical of yourself and this thread illustrates that once again. We are all our own worst critics. We have unlimited time to look in the mirror and study every feature of ourselves and pick out every little thing we consider a flaw that most people would never notice or care about. I feel like that's what you're doing but maybe to a much less healthy level than most.
As I said, I'm not trying to put you down or criticize you, so I hope you don't take it that way. I am truly worried about you and concerned for your health. I wish there was something more I could do to help but at this point all I can do is stress how beautiful you are, remind you that you've come a long way and been very successful in your transition, and ask you to stay strong and focus on taking care of yourself instead of focusing on critiquing your physical appearance. Good luck to you hun, I hope you find a way to solve the weight issues and get to a more peaceful place.
