So if anyone has ever read my introduction post, ppl will know that I originally was Skylar for 9 long months on hrt, but then stopped because I was so lonely and sad. And because my family hated me. I didn't have the rock I have now, my 3rd wife to lean on in those times. So now I'm just really nervous about coming out again and starting hrt again while no where near to the point of appearing female, my hair is growing from a buzz cut from a month ago or so. I also work in a very male driven field...a gun range. Luckily I'm in New Jersey where there is strict anti discrimination laws and I've been here almost 2 years and I'm a valuable asset but we all have the thought here that they can just let us go at any moment because of how the management is here.... it stinks so much

Let alone the fact my sons mother (my second ex wife) tried to take my son from me when I was out and transitioning...

Just breathe everything will be ok, ok

You are amazing in strength. The sheer will power to ''go back'' after tasting the good life and still being sane shows tremendous strength. But, now its time to channel that strength into that woman you have completely hid in the closet for some time. Transfer that power to her/you. Because thats exactly who she is, you!!!

I have shot trap and vended at many gun clubs without having any problems with anybody. The states include Washington, Oregon, California, Arizona, Nebraska, Texas, Utah and Illinois. I suspect if you handle it properly, their shouldn't be any problems keeping your job.

Hugs to both of you. Y'alls comments really are uplifting. Idk I just am worried about a lot and when I thought my spouse fully supported me being who I am and how I feel. Come to realize she wants the best of both worlds as she says it. Looking female everywhere else but keep my born sexual organ. So it's like hormones aren't even an option...im so hurt right now