I still don't give a care about anyone else's oppininin

I've just had a few hundred PAP smear brushes delivered, I wonder what people are thinking 

Pat Smear may be a bit Jealous

Pat Smear@yahoo.com

Quote from: V M on June 04, 2017, 01:23:48 AM
Pat Smear may be a bit Jealous

Pat Smear@yahoo.com

If there ever was a reason for a name change!

So why are you beating me up?

Quote from: V M on June 04, 2017, 01:41:40 AM
So why are you beating me up?

? 

Okay, maybe I'm wrong, It's been a rough weekend with my sister and all 

Talking to my sister about my father's health just about killed me

Yes, you are my best sister and I am not talking of you

I can't keep telling people that I feel truly happy when I break down inside at the slightest mention of something related to my trauma.

I have to think more and more about putting my mother in a nursery home.
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I'm sittin' here cryin my eyes out while you all are doin' your silly ass power dances

I have to wait one more day until the lootbox thing resets on Overwatch. Only other way I can keep getting lootboxes is through ranking up, but I'm not a big fan of ranks in games since they may not be reflective of someone's skill in gameplay.

I'm now just playing GTA V to try and unlock customisation items (guns and maybe clothes for my dude). Few seem to want to play jobs which award lots of RP (or XP).

need to paint my nails but Hot Rod club Tuesday night and no one knows yet, clear coat then. Think I can cope with 2 days of slight dysphoria

I really hate when people, especially strangers, talk like I'm hurting them simply by existing. They seem to think that their theories are more true than medical facts and more precious than my existence.

I guess I let them do it, though. It sometimes seems that their arguments have enough internal consistency to make me half agree and then feel guilty for continuing to breathe.

This one has been floating around in my head the past few days since I remembered a bit more of my childhood. (For years I remembered almost nothing before the age of ten.):

I'm not different because I was abused.
I was abused because I'm different.

A death in the family is no excuse for my ill behavior    all apologies if I insulted anyone

Big hug! If it didn't work, c'mon up to Boston and I'll show you how
to REALLY get under people's skin! 

Hugs, Devlyn

Even when playing games or talking to other gamers I'm not safe from envying women.

Thank god my mom is willing to listen to others, even if it's not me!