Hello,
I'm Sammie or Samantha, or at least I will be once I become full time.
I'm 24, MTF, Live in the DFW area. I am pre-everything, I have only recently started shaving my body.
I've wanted to be a girl for so long... I used to pray to God to make me wake up and be a girl... it never happened.
I recently have had a lot of time to actually research things since I'm recently unemployed.
Once I started researching the transition process and doing little things toward transitioning, I've become much happier. I've bought some girls clothing, but I haven't gone out in public yet.... I can't wait until I can start truly transitioning... I'm looking at going back to school in the fall and trying to get a job somewhere like Walmart or something.
I've come out to very few people whom I trust a lot. I told my mom, but that's only because I live with her. She's very Catholic, so she is trying to be supportive but cannot totally accept my "decision" as it goes against the church or whatever, but she's not putting me down, and want's to make sure I research everything before I make decisions I can't come back from.
I haven't told my dad, I don't know if I can... I often feel I will need to leave the state to be happy and start my transition. My dad is a former skinhead, and still, holds some of their beliefs. He's told stories of rolling around with the boys in Downtown Dallas and stopping to beat the ->-bleeped-<- out of gay guys walking down the street. When my mother told him I was bi, he sat me down and told me it was just a phase, I wasn't bi, and I should think like that. Then my step-mom told me "Jake, the d*** was ment for the pu***"
It sucks I'll lose some of my family in this... but at the end of the day it's important for me to be happy too...
