For the record, I think I am not depressed. I have to pee a lot. It is no longer a neat proposition. I am cleaning up the surgery site a lot. It gets sore. I have sores on legs from pads rubbing. A shower and 2 1/2 hours a day dilating, not sleeping because I wake up every couple of hours, hormones going crazy and hot flashes constantly having me steaming or freezing. Given that, I am exhausted I wouldd guess, not depressed. I push myself to get a little exercise but it starts swelling, rubbing on my sores. After two harder days, I could use a good day with a bit more energy. I am still happy I had surgery, would not change a thing, and consider myself extremely lucky. In the back of my mind someone might read this thread and might be wondering how it feels 3 weeks post op. I owe the thread the descriptionn of what it might feel like. I know it looks like I might be complaining, but I can't help that. Oh, on top of everything else, you start seeing changes. Some are easy. Bruising disappearing, good news. Other things, color changes for example play on your mind. Is this or thaat a start of an issue to watch out for, that might be a setback. I personnally think back to how bad my FFS turned, and there is some fear that I try to keep leashed. In everything I try to contribute to this site, I ask for others to be positive, take positive steps. I will not give in to negativity. Where are you Laurie, my therapy is giving you a hard time, ya stinker. Well dilation number 4 is done, one more to go. Now, smile, damn it!
PoopedMoni