Hello im Abbie, life has most definitely been hard, especially being a trans woman. I'm 44. My first memory s are of upsetting all most all of my family members because I allways knew that I was a girl, I suffered every kind of abuse that you can think of as a child ,my parent s were neglectful most definitely not understanding. I was passed around because my mother and father didn't want to deal with a strange kid like me. I was sexually abused by one uncle, and allmost beaten to death by another. Going though school was not easy ether kids allways know when some one is different, the more I tried to fit in, the more I stood out. Eventually ended up with my grand parents witch was a safe place. My grandma knew what I was, how can she not, I asked her when I was 5 when I'd get pillows on my chest like hers (boobs) :-). She laughed about it, she was very understanding and explained to me what I was a said that until I excepted it I would be unhappy, she was right of course. By high school I had turned into a hell raiser ,would do just about anything, that most folks wouldn't do. Just figured that would keep me safe from bullys and sutch, for the most part ir worked no one wants to mess with a crazy person who dose not fear death. By the time I was 18 years old I was doing road construction, I got ran over by a drunk driver driving a mack dump truck full of asphalt it flipped over and buried me in the asphalt. I had 1st 2nd and 3rd degree burns on about 30 percent of my body. 2 herniated disk in my back witch work comp refused to checkout or treat. Basically got screwed kansas has the worst work comp laws they protect the company's not the workers.
This led to 20years of dysfunction was on a very self destructive path. I had a very open invitation with death, thankfully no one took me up on that. By 2010 my health had taken a bad turn the human body can only with stand so much stress , my back injury had gotten so bad that my right leg had atrophied I had no feeling on my right side from my belly button down. I had 2 failed surgeries for acid reflux. By 2011 I got my back fused at l 5 l 4 s 1. Ive got feeling back but things still don't always work right permanent nerve damage. I couldn't get the reflux under control until I excepted who I am as a transwoman. In January of 2016 I started living full time and have been on e for a year. The reflux is under control, and feel more like a normal person. Life is so much better. Im working on getting my letters for surgery I've got one, the other I will have after 3 more visits.
