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My life now (Haven't been on here in almost a year)

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PeterSteele

July 23, 2017, 04:50:36 PM
So, I haven't been on here in awhile so I'd like to tell you whats up.
So if you have seen my earlier posts, I came out and many people didn't accept it and well...they still don't.
So what I have done now, is just pretty much identify as a female, even though deeply inside my feelings of wanting to be a male still linger.
I do my best to hide it and don't ever speak of it. In December it will be 1 year acting this way.
So, I have a lot more years many many many,so I guess I'll see how this will go.
I'm not sure if its a good choice, but it did stop most of the hate.
Peter Steele Θ
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SailorMars1994

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July 23, 2017, 04:59:51 PM
That sounds..... really sad.

I am sorry you had to endure that and keep to yourself. Do you atleast have a safe and productive way of expressing other parts of yourself?
AMAB Born: March 1994
Gender became on radar: 2007
Admitted to self : 2010
Came out: May 12 2014
Estrogen: October 16 2015
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PeterSteele

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July 23, 2017, 05:30:53 PM
Thank you for replying. I do not have any way of expressing myself, which is pretty bad. At least my family loves me again.. It's tough.
Peter Steele Θ
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tgirlamg

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July 23, 2017, 05:37:30 PM
Hi Peter!

I'm sorry things are not as ideal as they could be... It sounds like you are in a state of compromise for the time being that carries some benefit to it but in time I believe you'll find a path to life more inline with your heart and mind!!!... Wishing you blessings, strength and hope for your path forward!!!!


Onward we go!!!

Ashley :)
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment" ... Ralph Waldo Emerson 🌸

"The individual has always had to struggle from being overwhelmed by the tribe... But, no price is too high for the privilege of owning yourself" ... Rudyard Kipling 🌸

Let go of the things that no longer serve you... Let go of the pretense of the false persona, it is not you... Let go of the armor that you have worn for a lifetime, to serve the expectations of others and, to protect the woman inside... She needs protection no longer.... She is tired of hiding and more courageous than you know... Let her prove that to you....Let her step out of the dark and feel the light upon her face.... amg🌸

Ashley's Corner: https://www.susans.org/index.php/topic,247549.0.html 🌻
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Dena

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July 23, 2017, 05:47:58 PM
I was thinking about you a couple of days ago and was wondering how you were doing. At this point, the only advice I can give you is to get all the school you can and then start saving your money for the future. I know this solution will work as it's the path I needed to take. It will be slow but I believe you can do it. It the mean time, stay in touch and let us know how you are doing.
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PeterSteele

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July 23, 2017, 07:36:41 PM
Thank you all so much, it truly has made me feel better. I'll be sure to keep updating more often about whats happening with my life :) Thank you so much once again.
Peter Steele Θ
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Dan

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July 24, 2017, 07:42:46 AM
Holy crap! This is not a great situation to be in. At least it's not a permanent condition and you can create a path out of it. Have a plan and work through to the end goal: freedom to express who you really are.

You can and will break free in time.

All strength, focus and determination to you.
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Ryuichi13

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July 24, 2017, 09:12:28 AM
Wow, that truly sucks!

I don't know how old you are, but I second the emotion of saving up money until you can move out on your own.

Maybe you can do little things, like buy yourself men's underwear or t-shirts.  Just be sure to do your own laundry so you don't get found out.

Or maybe you can ask to go see a therapist.  That way, you can talk to them about your gender dysphoria and the doctor can actually legitimize that you are gender dysphoric and need to transition.  Make sure the therapist does their research into transgender people so they can be as understanding of your situation as possible.

Btw, epic-cool name and icon pic!  Nice to see another Type O Negative fan here!

Ryuichi

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