Its along time ago since i visit this forum. Thats because i'm on a point where ive no questions anymore.

I'm 2 years postOP now, still in pain, with my Tramadols in the one hand, some other pills in the other. I was hoping my HRT will bring any more results but this thought was a belief only. I got massive problems with too much testosterone. I can remember that i was asking here about that ... later i got a massive exzema on my head and lost all my hair after 6 month.

The last attempt was starting antiandrogenes again. Ive no idea if my hair will regrowth in the way before. After starting the antiadrogenes i was gaining my weight by 10lbs in only a few month ... i dont eat more or so ... i could watching it over night. Its so crazy.

Ive no idea why my transition turned in such a horror trip. What ive done?
I hate my life so much!

Be carefull what youre doing!
Galaxy

I'm so very sorry for your pain and loss.   It is a reminder that this is indeed serious business and that biology is full of variation and things can and do go wrong.  I wish you peace and release from these troubles.  I pray that a solution will be found and the medical issues resolved.  The story is not over.

Namaste,
Julie

I tolerated it a very long time. But i think every torture should find an end at sometime.

I'm so sorry Galaxy.  Has your doctor tried adjusting your doses to help you out?  I'm assuming that since you're post op that the testosterone issue resolved? 

I've read that hair lost within the last 5 years can usually be recovered, I've had some luck with mine.  Could it be another issue?  Have you consulted a dermitoligist?   They may have a little insight into why you had hair issues.

I hope that the pains you're having are nothing serious.  My heart goes out to you... I'm so sorry and I pray that things turn around for you soon.

Sorry

It's always worth hanging on, no matter what's happening.

Take all this bollocks (pun not intended) out. There are wonderful things and sights and sensations in the world that make it worth sticking around for. Even if it's a tiny thing. Something you used to love, somewhere you always wanted to go but haven't been to yet. It's still there. It's waiting for you, and it doesn't care what you look like or who you are.