hello i've been reading these boards now for few weeks now.

my name is Mark and i'm 20 years old currently doing an animation and games art course in doncaster.

i've just started down this path after finally been able to admit it to myself after almost 8 years.

my desire to be a woman began at the age of 13 after my real father walked out of my life for good (he was cheating on my mother and left her for another women when i was 6 years old but still came to see me) i was often bullied due to my small and skinny body and because i was physically weak. everytime i made a new friend they just ended up making fun of me and stabbing me in the back eventually i became distant, cold and untrusting other men.

i kept this to myself until a few months ago (i didn't want to make my mother worry) when my step dad kevin asked me "have you ever considered a sex change?" i froze when said this and naturally i lied to keep my secret and asked him what made him ask that question.

he said that i don't trust men and that i act different towards people depending on their gender (cold and distant towards other men, my normal personality towards women) he then went on to say i was very uncomfortable with myself and gender. (i wonder if he's secretly a shrink or just extremely observant).

even though i lied to him that day he probabily nows better and he's okay with what ever choice i make, my mother i'm not sure of she has brought up that topic a few times and said things like "you wouldn't suit being a girl" but i'm not sure what to make it. has she figured me out, has kevin told her, or did she already know.

i've just started acting on this desire a few weeks ago and i've just started crossdressing in private(you'd be surprised what you can find if you really look in town). i don't like the idea of wearing wig so i'm going to wait until i have longer hair till i go out in public (still need to buy the rest of my make up anyway)

i plan on coming out to my perants during summer when i go home for the holidays

thank you for time reading and i would appreciate any support or advice you all offer
- Mark (hopefully Marcia in the future.)

Well Hi Marcia and welcome to Susan's! I'm glad you shared your story and I'm sure you'll enjoy your time here. It sounds like you're off to a good start.

Karen Lyn

Quote from: KarenLyn on February 16, 2008, 08:56:19 AM
Well Hi Marcia and welcome to Susan's! I'm glad you shared your story and I'm sure you'll enjoy your time here. It sounds like you're off to a good start.

Karen Lyn

thank you

hiyea  Marcia welcome to susans . there are lot of great people here 

Hey Marcia!  That's awesome that you work in animation and game design!  Thats the field I hope to get into.  =)  I think its interesting that your step dad asked you about a sex change, it seems then that he's open minded! =)

Hi Marcia,

    Welcome.
    You'll find a lot of like minded people here.  I'm sure you will find the support to help you make the decisions that are coming up for you.

    It's pretty cool that your stepfather can talk so openly to you.  At least you'll have one person on your side to start with.  It might help with your mother to go slowly, of course.  Maybe introduce her to the concept through good documentaries and stuff like that.

    Anyway,  See you around,


Rebis

Quote from: Rebis on February 18, 2008, 12:20:15 PM

Hi Marcia,

    Welcome.
    You'll find a lot of like minded people here.  I'm sure you will find the support to help you make the decisions that are coming up for you.

    It's pretty cool that your stepfather can talk so openly to you.  At least you'll have one person on your side to start with.  It might help with your mother to go slowly, of course.  Maybe introduce her to the concept through good documentaries and stuff like that.

    Anyway,  See you around,


Rebis

can you recommend any?

I'll have to think on it.   There have been some quality shows on the discovery channel and MSNBC, but I don't know the names.  Also, the number of classy and well told TG/TS stories is growing.

Hello, Marcia, and welcome to Susan's!

It is wonderful that you have faced yourself and looked within to find who you really are.  That is a big realization, and now you're on your way.

The means by which your mum came to the conclusion that you are not suited for being a girl doesn't matter.  By standing by your convictions you will help her learn by watching how deeply committed you are to GRS.

In the meantime, enjoy yourself talking with Kevin whenever it suits you and read a copy of Viz from time-to-time.

I hope this helps.

Wing Walker

Hello Marcia and welcome to Susan's!

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