Hi everyone. So I am long overdue for an update. To make a long story short, for a while there my voice actually seemed to be getting deeper instead of higher, and I was having some serious concerns about it, but I didn't want to post here without really knowing what was going on and potentially creating fear, uncertainty, or doubt without cause. I did see a doctor and had my vocal chords examined, and it turns out everything basically looked okay. They were even impressed by the almost complete lack of scar tissue where my vocal chords were fused. They did however notice my vocal chords seemed very irritated, and though they weren't really able to explain why (other than possibly acid reflux which I'm pretty sure I don't have), but they thought it may just go away on it's own. And it does seem to have improved, although I'm still getting a lot of mucus buildup on my vocal chords which forces me to clear my throat a lot, which is definitely not helping the matter. In general, my voice has actually been sounding pretty good and feeling reasonably usable for the past few weeks, and it still seems to be getting better.
But (yes there always has to be a but with these type of things), in a way I am still finding myself a little disappointed with the results. The most obvious cause for disappointment is that my current base pitch seems to be settling at around 165-170Hz. My best estimate of my true completely untrained pitch (which was difficult for me to estimate since I went for so long using only my trained voice) is between 135-145Hz, meaning even in the best case, I gained about 35Hz. To put it in absolute terms, they said I could expect an approximately 70Hz increase, but I seem to have gotten about half that. Now I didn't need that much pitch, so my disappointment isn't nearly as great as it might have been if say I started with 100Hz as my base pitch. And I did say I would ultimately be happy if my previous trained voice became my speaking voice, which is essentially what I got. But even so, I guess on reflection, having saved up for nearly a year, put myself through the whole trip, and the recovery (not talking for a month was not fun), at a certain point you start to say to yourself, wow, this better be worth it.
Other than that my biggest complaint is just that the general feel of using my voice still feels "unnatural" at times. Its a bit harder to put my finger on this one, it's just that the feeling of using my voice in a way that it was not strictly speaking intended to be used is still not completely gone. I'm not really sure what I was expecting on this one... I guess it's just a matter of the fact that my natural pitch is just a bit lower than the way I like my voice to sound, so I still have to use kind of the same technique I did with a trained voice, just to a much lesser extent. If my pitch had gone over what my trained voice was, I could have just relaxed my voice and not cared, but I am very particular about the way my voice sounds, so yea...
Well, all that being said, how about some of the good points? For example, I can now laugh in a female pitch and have it sound right. Before this was just not possible, and I basically ended up having to mute my laughter to keep from sounding weird. Also, the horrible vocal tremor I developed seems to be gone, and regardless of the fact that the results from the surgery were not ideal, it is still way easier for me to talk now, and I don't ever feel like I strain my voice by just speaking normally. And finally of course, regardless of my personal reservations, everyone I talk to says my voice is sounding really great. So even with my personal concerns (and obviously there is still more time for some marginal improvement), I can't really complain too much, but I do feel like it's important to let people know that my procedure does appear to have under-delivered somewhat, because voice surgery is such a minefield and it's important people fully understand what the risks and potential outcomes are before getting themselves into it.