I have thought long and hard and I don't believe transition is right because I love my wife and my kids. I just don't want them to have the ordeal of me in their life for many years.
I might do it in 20 years. My partner will not accept transition or anything like it. And this isn't about her having to change.

I know many of you made a different choice, either because you are braver or just couldn't avoid it.
So I need a genuine, if imperfect sticking plasters.
Therapy has only highlighted that I am stuck.

So can antidepressants help at all long term?
Has anyone tried them to stop the flood..even for a while?

 Hi Sarah,

   I have not tried antidepressants and as these medications can have serious consequences you would probably be better served asking your therapist or GP about them.

laurie

At worst you will get side effects that could make things even harder, at best you will just be buying time until it becomes too much.

I've been on anti depressants for over 35 years started on prozac, am now on Citalopram and bupropian. Nothing made as much difference as estrodial. I don't know if it is because I came out or the hormones but I can't recall feeling better than I do right now after a year on HRT. My wife now realizes I did this transitioning for her to save our marriage, because I was suffering a breakdown because of all the secrets. No secrets, no stress. I wanted our twilight years to be stress free and It just so happens to have turned out that way for now. Now we can share our conversations as girlfriends.  I don't always have to be the boss.

Thanks. I really just need to put off the inevitable as I'm nowhere near self-sufficient financially or able to secure my children's future for many years

I lived most of my life before I transitioned on antidepressant drugs. For me, they did very little except take the edge off. I existed, I didn't really live.

I hope it works better for you.