Quote from: MsAllannah1! on September 07, 2017, 12:04:59 AM
Since I'm still new here, I can't figure out how to respond to people individually so I hope you all don't mind. First, Shellie, thanks so much for sharing. You are living my dream, quite literally. I'm 12 year's divorced, my kids are grown so it's just me here. Plus, I work at home. So it's a lot of time by myself and I would love to be able to look down and see a body that has the parts I've always wanted. I"d love to keep chatting more...your really are doing what I want to do and I want to find out how great it is. How happy are you with your body changes? How long has it taken? What changes have you seen?
Well, as always, be careful what you wish for. I am quite slim and any changes on me are noticeable, which is not a great thing since I am completely closeted. I went from flat to really erect C-cups in about a year on HRT. Probably 80% of my changes have been in aggressive breast growth. My breasts are still growing, so I may end up with D-cups by spring. At that point I know I will not be able to hide anything, no matter how hard I try. Yes, it is nice to sit up from bed in the morning and look down and see the body of a sexy female (I sleep naked). But the downside (one of many actually) is I can no longer sleep in my favorite position (on my stomach) for obvious reasons. I am very limited now in what I can wear in order to hide. I can no longer wear the tight pullover shirts that I loved to wear in the hot summer. I can only wear the more bulky button-ups to try to hide these things (recently had to switch from M to L). I will never be able to go shirtless in any situation such as swimming (which I don't do anyway). I grew large nipples and areolas (like a girl) so my breasts are completely womanly now (I was hoping this aspect would stay unchanged or small, but no luck).
So yes, it is nice to be female when alone. Really nice. But I could write stories here of the embarrassing experiences I have already endured because of these breasts. Once, I entered my dentist office and instantly noticed everyone staring at my chest. Then I couldn't help noticing the constant glances while I waited my turn with the dentist. It was disconcerting to say the least. Later I was standing at a store sales counter and I swear one of the clerks was dying to ask me about my chest (I also have lots of cleavage that is too visible). He kept staring and making it too obvious for comfort. I should not have worn a tight-fit button-up that day. Then along with my tight skinny jeans, I am sure I got the stares (if I had on a pair of my 5" heels, the look would have been complete!
). I know everyone sees a somewhat-busty girl walking into the office but are blown by the guy's face and voice. I have to admit I get nervous sometimes, especially knowing these new breasts are permanent. Getting a little more nerve-wracking every day.
Life pretty much gave me the finger with the body shape I was born with. For a guy I was simply too feminine in stature (very long girly legs and small torso) to get along with any group. Growing up like this was misery (my father always accused me of "trying to look like a girl"). As I detailed in earlier posts, I had to deal with a lot of negative names and catcalls. I gave up a few years ago and accepted what I am and just decided to fulfill my need to be a woman. Now I am paying for it big time with all the weird attention and unwanted looks. Great while at home, but tough outside.
All I can say is, please be careful...
