Okay so a little bit first of what Ive been up to the last weeks. I finally am trying to get on a pill that will either lower or eliminate any sexual wants in me. I got an appointment that I go to in 1 week. That Im hoping still goes like I want it to. Im also meeting at my job with someone Thursday on my day off who is gonna help me with letting a few other people know that Im trans at my job along with also that whoever takes over as my boss should that we both agree on.
Today's part of these 2 crazy weeks was a case of someone having trouble understanding and being afraid that the person they know is going away. One I do not intend to "transition" but I do intend to do what I can to lower my dysphoria and atleast be me somewhat. That's what that doctors appointment is about. To help lower my dysphoria which while wont be mentioned, it is a big part of it. If I can lower my dysphoria and help get my hair to reverse any thinning at all and be happier which means healthier, why shouldn't I. That's why Im looking for a pill to lower or better eliminate any sex drive in me.
Well today, the person I spoke to does not know Im trans but does suspect I think. He thought maybe I should try acceptance of my genitals and that being the sexual part. Ive told him before Ive tried abstaining which Ive only had minor luck with. I told him today that other than peeing with it, I have no use for what is between my legs. Acceptance kind of pissed me off when he mentioned it but I still let it go. Im not going to accept something I dont want. I told him that why should I keep something around that I dont want and that upsets me.
He's not a bigot as some might call him, he just does not want to see the guy he knows gone and he has no idea what being trans is like. If I was forced to live strictly male like only short hair for example, I think I would be in an institution or dead. The conversation with him however is not done and I think in time he will get it but this was def annoying to put it mildly.
