Another milestone passed today!
After picking up my first prescription for BLT numbing cream (so I can finally get started on hair removal), I put on my earrings, brushed out my hair, grabbed my purse, and went shopping at Target. This was my first time out shopping without my wife for cover and moral support. On the way in I used the ladies room, then went right to the women's section and picked out a couple of tops... and my first bras! I had to keep going back to the fitting room until I found something that fit - probably 5 or 6 times. I used to sneak the clothes back onto the rack, but this time I just dropped them off at the desk like they want you to, and the nice lady thanked me.
There was absolutely no drama. Most people just ignored me, just another girl out shopping. The people I did interact with were nice.
Two things surprised me: first, it was a last minute decision to do this, so I the only makeup I had on was a little concealer over the beard. Second, other than giving myself a little pep talk before I got out of the car, there was no anxiety, and it just felt natural. Why shouldn't a girl go buy herself clothes without fear?
I think I'm finally getting it. Those of you who've been there are probably smiling and thinking, "I told you so!" For those who are just getting started, I was where you are just a few months ago. I you had told me in June that in September I'd be shopping in girl mode, by myself, for bras
, I would have called the folks with the white jacket for you. Just own it, and if you're nervous, fake the confidence 'til you make it. Don't let them smell the fear, and before long, there won't be any to smell.
I am so geeked right now. I can see RLE just around the corner...
Steph