Very nice Davina. I had a phase of those brighter colours but tend to stick to plumbs, reds and pinks these days, you rock that blue though girl! the sandals are nice.

I spent the afternoon trying to find something cool to wear as it's getting hot around these parts and I haven't got any lightweight blouses that I like. Got gendered correctly by everyone which was nice, it's usually love, sweetie or mam but got a "serve this lovely lady first" today which was nice

Been trying to build up the courage to get a proper bra fitting. I have slight gynecomastia, so I've got a full handful of breast to work with, just need the right bra to get the best out of what I've got. That will be next weeks challenge. I can't say I'm looking forward to it but needs must. I don't want to keep making expensive mistakes or buying something unsuitable for my frame, I'm also very dysphoric in that area so it's kind of hard for me. I'll get it done though, I'm quite single minded once I commit to something.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

I got an A cup pushup bra from M&S that fits my moobs  slightly padded as well , still prefer C cup with breast forms though as more weight (and bounce)

Thanks Davina.

I was scouting out M&S today, I think I'll pop in during the week when it's a bit quieter and get a fitting.

Had one of those dead name store card blunders today buying a birthday present for my niece But also had two different shop assistance commenting that we had the same nail polish on "Leighton Denny Red?" "yup" "nice colour isn't it?" "yup" "Suits you" "And you" "Have a nice day" "You too" I love these little conversations, silly I know but makes me feel more connected and socially accepted.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Well a little update on what's been happening in Sadie land.

A month or so ago I was placed on the autism spectrum with Aspergers. I've always struggled socially so it wasn't too big of a surprise. To cut a long story short it sent my head spinning, hence my absence here, kind of a straw too many for me.
Anywho i'm settling now, and getting used to the idea that i'm officially a maths genius that should be working for NASSA At least that's what my doc. said the other day bless his cotton socks.

So everything is back on track. Sadie has been out on the town for this past week, nails repainted and warpaint on. Some things you've just got to work through yourself and this was one of those things.

On the plus side, even when I wasn't trying I've been getting gendered correctly for the most part. The cramping I was getting for months has vanished as mysteriously as it appeared, and no bits have fallen off me, which i'll take as a good thing.

A little special thanks to Laurie for helping me through. you're a very special lady.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Hi Sadie,

  My gosh girl I don't give a darn what they say  you might be, I'm glad to have you running around here again.
(((HUG))) Missed you girl. I'm also glad you've worked things out but you do know we are here for you if you need us. Hack sometimes we all need a shoulder to cry on or someone to talk to. Me included, I surely am not special.
  What you think I did I'm not sure as all I think I did was reach out to a friend I missed.

   Glad you're back and beautiful.

Hugs,
    Laurie

Well i've got the flu . Spent the last two night coughing and spluttering and feeling sorry for myself. Spent most of today programming a software drum sequencer which helped me to not feel sorry for myself by doing something constructive instead, but is still feel wretched.
I shall try and venture out tomorrow as i'm running low on supplies. Starting to feel the first hugs of autumn here in the U.K. It'll soon be coat and boots time. I do like autumn Anywho time for my beauty, cough, sleep......sneeze, splutter, sniff.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Defiantly on its way, I need to add to my wardrobe . Just got 2 pairs of jeans but need boots to go with them , ooh and a coat to keep the winter wind out . Have to see where Evans is in Hereford.

Quote from: Shy on September 17, 2017, 05:50:21 PM
Well i've got the flu . Spent the last two night coughing and spluttering and feeling sorry for myself. Spent most of today programming a software drum sequencer which helped me to not feel sorry for myself by doing something constructive instead, but is still feel wretched.
I shall try and venture out tomorrow as i'm running low on supplies. Starting to feel the first hugs of autumn here in the U.K. It'll soon be coat and boots time. I do like autumn Anywho time for my beauty, cough, sleep......sneeze, splutter, sniff.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

I hope you are feeling better Sadie. I was just thinking today that I don't really have winter appropriate shoes or clothes. I did buy a very lightweight hoodless jacket but it's a little on the small size at an XL so I'm thinking of giving it away. I guess I'll need to do a bit of shopping.

Laurie

Well ladies looks like we've all got some shopping to do for new winter warmers.

Quote from: Laurie on September 19, 2017, 04:00:44 PM
I hope you are feeling better Sadie.

Laurie

Feeling much better thank you Laurie, still a bit congested but the coughing has stopped.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

So I message your post and have now got your bug, treating it with honey and lemon with a shot of bourbon!!!!!!

Quote from: davina61 on September 21, 2017, 02:06:48 PM
So I message your post and have now got your bug, treating it with honey and lemon with a shot of bourbon!!!!!!

Sorry to here that Davina, that pesky bug seems to be everywhere. Wishing you a speedy recovery, seems like it mutated to an internet virus

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Well it's been a strange few months for me, I think I'm settling back into my rhythm again. Two years is too long to be left in the wilderness trying to work things out all on my lonesome (INSERT SYMPATHY HERE) I'm at the point where I need professional help to unravel this yarn ball that is my life. I know i'm trans, no question, but not to know if i'll even get any help when I do get to see someone is a constant worry.
Anywho, i'm determined to ride it out, distract myself as much as I can and be positive. Been composing some ambient music today drenched in reverb and long delays. That always calms my soul.
Off to see a regular councillor on Friday, It will be nice to just open up and blurt everything out i've been bottling lately.
I need to start running again and taking better care of myself. It's just been so mad for me recently with one thing or another + cramping. I knew I had to let things slip for a while and eat copious amounts of chocolate to compensate. So time to dust myself down, put my face on and get my act together, only I'm no longer acting thank goodness

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie.

With all that and PINK nails!!!!! Boots no7 stay perfect , just had a look but no name or anything on bottle. Darkish pink with a hint of brown?? wearing it at the moment, been on since Sunday night and still OK after work today and put a wardrobe together tonight as well .

Hi Sadie,

  I read the part about your intentions to tell your therapist  what has been bothering you and ask for help. It's probably long overdue. I  hope you have decided to share your adventures with with us too. That initial coming out to your therapist thought a bit nerve racking is relieving also. I suspect the encounter is going to be great and it can even be euphoric. I want to hear all about it Sadie.

  I too have a session with my therapist tomorrow and I too plan on asking for help.  I think I also have some life to unravel as you put it.  We can compare notes.

Hugs,
   Laurie

Quote from: Laurie on September 27, 2017, 08:12:21 PM
Hi Sadie,

  I read the part about your intentions to tell your therapist  what has been bothering you and ask for help. It's probably long overdue. I  hope you have decided to share your adventures with with us too. That initial coming out to your therapist thought a bit nerve racking is relieving also. I suspect the encounter is going to be great and it can even be euphoric. I want to hear all about it Sadie.

  I too have a session with my therapist tomorrow and I too plan on asking for help.  I think I also have some life to unravel as you put it.  We can compare notes.

Hugs,
   Laurie

Thanks Laurie My therapist know everything, I've been living full time for nearly 7months or so. We share makeup tips . What she doesn't know is about the autism diagnosis which has really sent my head spinning.
I've struggled socially all my life, beat myself up about it, been medicated for it, but all the time barking up the wrong tree.
It's a lot to take on board as now I know it's very unlikely things are going to change for me.
I'm starting to recognise it now though, my family had one of those 'now it all makes sense' moments, and I think in the long term I will find some peace with it all.
I hope you feeling better my friend and good luck with the therapy.

Quote from: davina61 on September 27, 2017, 04:44:06 PM
With all that and PINK nails!!!!! Boots no7 stay perfect , just had a look but no name or anything on bottle. Darkish pink with a hint of brown?? wearing it at the moment, been on since Sunday night and still OK after work today and put a wardrobe together tonight as well .

I'm a number7 girl through and through, so much so they're thinking of calling me number8. Never tried their polish though.

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie

Well I saw the therapist today, sorted a few things out that were troubling me.
I think i'll stop posting in this thread now, i'm not sure if it helps anyone, I don't think it's helping me so i'll sneak off and hide in the shadows somewhere. Peace to you all.

Sadie

Quote from: Shy on September 29, 2017, 05:21:07 PM
Well I saw the therapist today, sorted a few things out that were troubling me.
I think i'll stop posting in this thread now, i'm not sure if it helps anyone, I don't think it's helping me so i'll sneak off and hide in the shadows somewhere. Peace to you all.

Sadie

   Awww Sadie, don't go running off. Have you been sharing what it is that you are having trouble with? If not then how can we help you. Oh I know not everyone wears their hearts on their sleeves like I do mine. Sadie, you have to at least give us some clues so we can figure out what you need help with. Maybe you don't want to share it in public, Then pick someone you think may be able to help you and PM them. But if you must go please return occasionally and let us know how you are doing.

Hugs,
   Laurie

Sadie Girl, don't you be taking your bootie off.  You been a postin' and I been a lurkin' and a learnin'.
This is your thread.  You cant just make those boots for walkin'.  Here you co do the Boot Skootin' Boggie.  What a horrible song.

Hi everyone,

I know it's been a long time, but I had to wander the wilderness for a while. These are personal journeys for all of us and I just needed to step aside and take stock. 

I'm still full time, that's over a year now barring a few unscheduled blips, and only another 8 months or so before I actually get to see a gender therapist. I'm a little dysphoric just now, but not too bad. I want to change my name to stop those all too common awkward moments, but until, or if I get an official green light for a medical transition I'm stuck in the twilight zone. It's the uncertainty of it all that is troubling, the stuff that is out of my hands.

On the plus side i'm muddling through, keeping busy. Life's not so bad. I don't cower anymore when I see my reflection in a shop window. I feel very comfortable presenting as myself in public I still struggle with close neighbours though, I won't lie about that, but it doesn't stop me moving forward. I'm sure it's just a self esteem issue and a little focused therapy will give me the tools I need to sort it.

So that's about it, I've missed everyone, A LOT! Hope you are all well unlike everyone in the U.K. who seems to have the flu.

Darn it! I just smudged my polish trying to type this post, see what happens when I visit Susan's

Peace and love and all that good stuff,

Sadie.

Quote from: Shy on January 09, 2018, 04:34:40 PM


On the plus side i'm muddling through, keeping busy. Life's not so bad. I don't cower anymore when I see my reflection in a shop window. I feel very comfortable presenting as myself in public I still struggle with close neighbours though, I won't lie about that, but it doesn't stop me moving forward. I'm sure it's just a self esteem issue and a little focused therapy will give me the tools I need to sort it.

........

Sadie.

Hi Sadie

Great to see you back and posting. Sounds like some well needed time out.

So glad to see you are happy with the way you look and are still moving forward. Sounds to me like you even know what you have to do when it comes to the neighbours...sounds like you got this

Great to see you back

Liz